10:58 amHello 2008
Oh how time flies!
In 3 days time, i am going back to work and life is sure gonna be busy and tiring for me. No more sweet time to bath Shibly every morning, breastfeed him every morning, watching Ellen Show, watching 10 am and 11 am Chinese Drama, watching The Golden Girls, Martha Stewart show, and in the afternoon, no more waiting for Suria to repeat the same music video sang by Jai, Fauzi Laily and dont know who else la and repeated Chef Celebriti gazzette and repeated Alif Aziz promotion and repeated opening of Suria Chanel where all the famour celebrity will sing “Suria…kembali bersinar…..” and then watching Barney and friends and some other Kids Central programmes.
Sampai naik bosan aku tengok Tv hari2 in the day. What to do? I have no SCV mah?
But no matter how bosan i am, i am sure gonna miss all those programmes especially in the morning. And to think tomorrow will be the last day i am gonng spend my time watching TV in the morning and afternoon.
How SAD!
And Shibly, im sure SHibly gonna be SO LOST suddenly he cannot have my breast as and when he like it in the day. Confirm Shibly will have to try and get used having his milk via his feeding bottles and play with his Oma. And confirm aku kanchong gila and will be very worried if Shibly die-die dont want his feeding bottles and will cry and look out for my breast. SIGH!
Shibly dislike his feeding bottles and no matter how hard i try to train him to get used with feeding bottles, it seems doesnt work that much because i cannot stand the pain in his eyes and his menyebek nyebek expression when i try to slowly force him to have his milk through bottles. At last, i gave him my breast and pray hard that he will know how to behave if i started to work. My mum keep telling me that…”Tak baik ko sumbat2 botol, dia tak nak sudah lah. Kesian dia. Kasi lah tetek ko. Nanti bila ko dah pergi kerja, dia tau lah bawak diri dgn Oma dia. Ko jgn takut.”
Haiiizzz…
I dont know whether if i can cope with some changes in my life soon. It is not about Shibly because ever since he came in my life, i dont even know the meaning of ‘tired’ at all. Maybe it is all because of the Power of Love that makes me stand strong till now. That makes me never give up on breastfeeding. That makes me still fresh even though i had sleepless night….
The husband has made some arrangements for us and i, with a heavy-hearted, have to follow suit and it is all because we are trying to save something which has been broken. I dont know whether if it is going to mess up the whole thing or maybe, just me? But i think it is going to be a total mess up for ME because i dont think i will feel comfortable staying at a place which is not really my home and has to bear with it until the situation is getting better.
Whether i like it or not, i think i will have to be like Shibly, getting used with a new home and new life. But i have to say something to him that i am not gonna be there for long and i hope he has to understand my needs and desire to be away from there and go back to my own place which i call Home. I know it may not be easy for me to cope with all these, especially when i have to start work and get stress with the stupid files at work.
Sometimes i hate adults! Why do they have to behave very childish and then, has to drag others into their problems? WHy cant they just leave the young ones to lead a carefree life without any worries? Will i be like them one day? Sigh….
It seems that 2008 has a bad beginning….i dont know whether are we gonna have happy ending?
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oh my nat. looks like we are going thru an ordeal at the same time kan.
my sister aka babysitter is going to start work on monday and my daughter aka qistina will be taken care by my aunt.
just the thot of it breaks my heart la. i know it will take a bit of adjustment but but but…
=(
Comment by ekyn — January 3, 2008 @ 4:52 pm
hi nat…happy new year! ..dun be sedih ok ..most impt u got to be with ur son la..
i tink i in future when dah kena balik keje ..also have to stay at my MIL place from time to time ..yishun lagi! die lor..
wat to do.. haizz
ekyn: oh kakak kau dah keje eh..takpe la at least family members ..err..pats pats
Comment by lynn maharet — January 3, 2008 @ 5:27 pm
leng: yishun! omg! ya family members tapi kan kesian lah. dah lah me and amoy got to leave her for work now her babysitter pulak. culture shock tao.
sorry nat! buat your blog mcm chat room! whahahawh!
Comment by ekyn — January 3, 2008 @ 11:04 pm
happy new yr beb!!
dn be sad oky..im sure shibly will get used to bottles..and look forward to spending time wif u during the wkends..
i guess dis is a young mum phase of life..bt be strong oky!!
Comment by suhaida — January 4, 2008 @ 12:23 pm
dont worry be happy.. be strong stay cool.. everything is going to be alright
Comment by Luv — January 4, 2008 @ 6:35 pm
paakal umah ko dgn aku jauh eh.. kalo tak da aku volunteer jaga anak ko tu.. pasal aku da jadi SAHD!! wakakakaka ko keje aku duk umah..gerek seh tapi gemuk! hari2 makan tido
Comment by haney — January 4, 2008 @ 11:38 pm
hey babe, thanks for the dinner & having us @ ur home just now!
wow, we love ur home!
suka sekali!!!!!!
betul tak bedek!!!!
ok, and sowi eh dah dtg lambat, balik lambat lagi!heh.
and and finally aku dpt jumpa shibly!!!!
geram sekali dgn shibly!
atleast dpt carry dia while the parent makan, tu pon mummy dia kelam kabut, pasal shibly nak “tetek”.
aneway, hope u love the tak seberapa gifts from us and see u soon ya!
Btw, thanks for shopping sakan bersama Msdollylolly!
Luv,
Mrs Boy, Lydia
Comment by Lydia — January 5, 2008 @ 12:48 am
Do take care and good luck for ur first day at werk!
LOL
* Cheer up babe!Sacrifices is the word!Insyallah, hope everything will goes on smoothly for u, tyler & shibly ya.
Comment by Lydia — January 5, 2008 @ 12:51 am
I hope everything will be alright. don worry. *hugs*
Comment by farry — January 5, 2008 @ 1:49 pm
to ekyn: yah eh. kita macam sama nasib. maklum lah. “org baru” yg jaga anak kita so the feeling like so berat hati nak tinggalkan baby eh? and takpe lah. i lagik suka buat ini blog macam chat room. heheeh!
to lynn: ya la i so the tak sabar nak balik ni nak tgk my darling boy. in future, u will face the same thing babe. heheeheh…
to suhaida: ya i just called my mil. he is doing fine but i guess he did cry. my mil saja je bedek just to make me feel better. yg pecah rahsia is my sis in law. heeee…happy new year babe!
to luv: thank you luv!
to haney: wah sanggup eh nak jaga baby? heheeheh…apa dah jadi ni? dah dapat kerja lum? hari tu offer ko dah ada kerja plak. offer dah bih baru ko tanya lagik.
to lydia: our great pleasure. wah wah..ko ni buat rumah aku macam rumah sultan datuk bandaraya je. heheheeh. kita suka lah dgn kehadiran kamu suami isteri. nanti dtg lagi lah. kalo tak kerana baju tu, aku rasa tak jumpa lah kita. and nx time dtg lagi, kasi baju free can? lol! and oh yes, we do love the bajus for shib boy! dah pakai pun! :p
to farry: yes baby. im coping. hugs
Comment by natsuki — January 7, 2008 @ 4:05 pm
to ekyn: yah eh. kita macam sama nasib. maklum lah. “org baru” yg jaga anak kita so the feeling like so berat hati nak tinggalkan baby eh?
YOU KNOW WAT. MY SISTER TURNED DOWN THE JOB OFFER COZ SHE CANT BEAR TO LEAVE MY DAUGHTER LA. AINT DAT SWEET. TOUCHING SEKALI KAN KAN.
I AM DEFINITELY BLESSED LOR. ALHAMDULILLAH
Comment by ekyn — January 12, 2008 @ 10:56 pm
Amazing article.
I guess you’ll like my blog..
Ciao
Comment by Find Ur Husband — January 15, 2008 @ 2:53 am