Nowadays, my hubby has been coming home late from work. I dont like it but sometimes, i gotta fake it said that “it is ok, i am your wife so i have to understand that your work is piling up and there are only 2 persons in your team to complete the job”.

But sometimes, it is hard to hide that anger, frustration and etc.

Sometimes i just want to scream at him and told him off that i am really really tired to keep on waiting for him at my in law’s place. But sometimes i know it is not fair for him because he really has no other choice but to stay late. Unless, he quit his job.

Sigh……

I love him. But i am really tired. Everytime when i headed to my mil’s place, i knew that it is going to be another long night for me to wait for him. Both of my in laws has been very kind to me and they even offered to send me back home since they understand that both Shibly and me already sian and sleepy.

But i can’t possibly get them to send me back home everyday kan? Or whenever my husband has to work late kan? And i cannot possibly spent my money on the taxi fare everyday kan?

Like yesterday, i really cannot hide my anger and frustration towards him. He reached at 9 pm and I didnt even want to look at his face because i very sian already. I didnt talk to him or served him any drinks. All i care was to go home immediately. Biar dia tak makan tak hisap rokok tak minum air semua ah. Apa nak jadi, jadi lah. Tapi very cruel of me kan?

So i just kept quiet and he automatically ate as fast as he could and told me nicely to pack my stuffs and go back home. At home, we didnt communicate much because i dont want to utter nonsense stuffs to him. Furthermore, i dont want my anger to affect Shibly because he is the innocent party. Tak tentu pasal nanti budak tu pun stress tengok muka mak dia yg dah cukup frust tonggek.

And lucky, my hubby automatically eh tau apa nak buat. He changed Shibly’s diaper, sapukan minyak telon and look after him awhile whilst I washed Shibly’s clothes but no time to jemur the baju, washed the dirty utensils and took a quick shower.

Im not sure today will be the same as any other day that i have to wait and wait till he come and fetch us home. Many things to do at home you know? How to jalan2 with friends after work? Si Shibly ni kalau lambat by 8 pm dah cry2 want my milk.

So stress you know. Every morning rushing. Back to home pun rushing because tak nak sampai rumah till 12pm. Sampai rumah lagi rushing nak do this and that.

Tak suka.

Really tak suka.

Nak balik siang.

4 Comments »

1. aisey beb..sucks eh? aku yg baru 1 minggu dah frust..coz shai only took 3 days leave to be with me lepas to back to work..haiz..

   but can’t help it la..coz work is work..

   i hope ur situation gets better..*hugs*

   Comment by lynnmaharet — April 4, 2008 @ 12:05 am

2. to lynn: ya it can be frustrating when our hubby boleh amik 3 days leave aje eh? same2 with my hubby tt time. and ya lar, if dorang tak kerja, kita pun nak makan apa seh? nak harapkan duit gaji kita sorang ke? woooo, tak leh angkat! heheheeh. i hope u get over the pantang2 soon eh. but make sure u dont langgar the pantang. hugs.

   Comment by natsuki — April 4, 2008 @ 9:47 am

3. babe,
   think it positively..he works for the family..at least ko ada teman while waiting for him rather ko sorang2 pat your own home.. tak gitu? hehe

   Comment by nora — April 9, 2008 @ 7:37 am

4. to nora: yeah ur rite. tapi i rather be at home with Shibly so that i can do a bit of housework than to wait for him doing nothing at my in-law’s place. hehehe.

   Comment by natsuki — April 9, 2008 @ 1:24 pm

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