11:38 amHello Monday
So today im going to send Shibly for his heart checkup. Many say that it is going to be all right. The hole will definitely closed. Dont worry as it happened to one of their friend’s baby too.
Some say, better take it seriously. It happened to a friend’s baby who passed away at the age of 2 yrs old due to that hole in the heart. The toddler couldnt breathe properly and the face turned blue and passed away when admitted to the hospital.
Sigh.
I remembered before i discharged from the hospital last year, i almost couldnt bring back Shibly to go home with me because the doctor still need to observe his heart. Luckily it was not critical and they let us go. Luckily too, Shibly did not have any jaundice.
The last time i went to KKH for Shibly’s checkup, i was told that Shibly had to go for opt if the hole is still there. We did ask what are the side effects if we do not want him to go for the opt. Doctor say that there is no sign or whatsoever because he will still grow as normal kids. But, he may have problem when he is growing as a teenager. He may suffer kidney and lung failure. By then, it was too late to go for surgery. I was almost in tears when i heard the doctor told me that. I just couldnt believe it and oh my god, why must it happen to Shibly? Sometimes, i think that the doctor just want to exaggerate about the hole in his heart.
Sometimes i think that the government only know how to generate income by telling others to spend monies on the operation and all. hahaha. I know its cruel to say that, especially when your kid really need that operation. But why must it happen to my baby? I’ve quit smoking for the sake of Shibly ok? So all these are bull shit lah? I can accept it if i smoke during my pregnancy and that cause the holes in his heart, but i did not lei? Although i am very much in desire to smoke even for just a puff, i still couldnt bring myself to do it because im scared should something happened to my baby.
I have been religiously ate my Obimin and Neurogain (fish oil) during my pregnancy. I drank Anmum and i avoided my all time favourite, Sushis for the sake of my pregnancy. But still, my baby is being affected with that holes in the heart. Im ok if there is a hole in my pocket, but not in Shibly’s heart.
I just hope that my case will be like in the first paragraph. Yea. It will definitely close and will be closed.
On the other note, i have something funny to share. This conversation happened between my eldest bro and a young boy who lived at Darul Makwa.
Young boy: Abang, abang polis eh?
My eldest bro: macam mana adik tau?
Young boy: Saya ada otak, saya tau lah.
LOL!
Funny tak? That was cute eh?
Ok bye.
10 Comments »
RSS feed for comments on this post. TrackBack URL
Nat, aku sedih but my well wishes are with you and the adorable Shibly.. I hope he’ll be fine.. You know where to reach me should you need me.. Take care.. I hope everything will turn out just fine for you and family.. be strong!
*smiles*
Comment by daniyalmomma — May 26, 2008 @ 5:58 pm
mcm feel cheated ey..?? after all the precautions you took..
nak go for surgery kesian pulak kan coz he still small..dilemma eh..
kalau tak nanti dah besar susah haizz..
just follow ur heart nat..and tawakal i think..insya allah everything goes well..*hugs*
ada otak eh?bual mcm orang besar! ahaha
we can only do so much kan..
Comment by lynn maharet — May 26, 2008 @ 11:00 pm
ok aku nyer last 2 sentence terbalik tau.. kau read the last one first then second last k hahahah
Comment by lynn maharet — May 26, 2008 @ 11:01 pm
nat, sedih plak aku baca. reminds me of the time i have to make decision for arian’s hernia. i choose to go ahead leaving his fate to Allah s.w.t. Do what you think is best for shibly. have faith. as a mother, it is the most difficult for us, but we also want nothing to happen to our child in future. follow ur motherly instinct. hugs to u and shibly dear.
Comment by effa — May 27, 2008 @ 11:13 am
hi nat… sorry to hear abt shibly’s condition..
i hope everything is fine.. nothing is confirmed in this world so tawakal je.. insyaallah shibly will be in the pink of health!
Comment by Nurdiana79 — May 27, 2008 @ 12:32 pm
to shila: thank you gf. heee. tak muh salah comment lagik ok? aku bedal ko baru tau. hur hur hur
to lynn: mmg feel very the cheated sometimes. anyway, ko ni dah jangkit aku kot kadang2 bual macam keling? lol! apa ni main type terbalik2 ni?
to effa: itu lah. sometimes i think macam mana yg ko bleh ada semangat to go through all that? it hurts kan to see our son kena go for opt? anyway thanks for your comforting words. hugs n kisses to both u and arian.
to nurdiana: thank you babe!
Comment by natsuki — May 28, 2008 @ 9:46 am
I hope Shibly is going to be alright. He’ll grow up into a fine young man. Have faith, because if God put you through it, he’ll get you through it.
Take care babe
Comment by lynnshikin — May 30, 2008 @ 9:25 am
Hey, babe!
Insyallah, i hope everything will goes out well for you & especially shibly.
Be strong!
Take care & update us again ya.
Comment by Lydia — May 30, 2008 @ 9:58 pm
maklum lah skarang tak cukup tido awhawhhawh
Comment by lynn maharet — May 31, 2008 @ 1:46 pm
to lynnshikin: thank you sweetie.
to lydia: thanks lyd!
Comment by natsuki — June 2, 2008 @ 1:58 pm