Ya i know its New Year and today is the 5th. I am taking a break right now as I have been very busy since morning. I’ve been busy in my dreams too, busy thinking about the workloads which is full of shits. Grrr!

Oh ya, what a beginning year to start with huh? Complaining about work? I have so many things to complain about. Not only about works but about people and the environment here.

Anyway, let’s start with my not so nice plan for this month. Whilst everybody are starting to be busy and back to business ( no more holiday miday except for this CNY), I am also busy planning how to manage sending Shibly off to my MIL’s place every  morning. The reason is, my husband is on reservist starting today till next week (i think sat/sun he can come back home lah). No transport for me  except for public transport lah. But if i were to take cab from Mon to Fri, it means that i am contributing about $50 to Mr Taxi for 5 days. $50 can top-up for his Ass 13 petrol or top up his cash card. So sayang right? You want me to take bus? LAgi cannot because if the bus is too crowded, where am i supposed to stand and carry Shibly and with my bag and all?

My MIL has been kind enough to suggest that i leave Shibly at her place every night and can just visit him maybe one of the weekdays after work then headed back to my own place so that I won’t kelam kabut bangun pagi carik taxi with him. But it is a No-No for me. I cannot leave w/out Shibly at night and i think that Shibly also cannot leave w/out me since i am still tetek-ing him. For me, no matter how penat and how kelam kabut i have to manage my time, i still feel that it is my responsibility to take care of my own child and attend to his needs wherever i can. So i must learn to sacrifice my time in order to be with my son all the time. Never once i let him sleep w/out my presence at night. Nobody know how much i want to be home right after work so that i can smell my boy and hug him and kiss him and play with him. At times, i’d rather spend time with my son at home than to meet my friends after work. Even if i sacrificed a little bit of my time with my friends, my heart tak tenteram tgk time bila nak balik ni, bila nak balik ni…LOL!

Im not sure how other mummies feel. Some may agree with me but some will not. Cause some will think that we need to have our own private time with friends, chilling out at the bar or have coffee after work frequently. I have to agree on that part but ntah lah, maybe i am the kolot one since i prefer to have coffee with my husband at home after work everyday or chill with my son at home instead of the bar. LOL. I’d rather watch my Vasantham Central during the weekends at home and make one nice teh susu with any kuihs but not with Shibly disturbing my teh and sibuk nak makan kuih jugak. LOL!

Ok let’s not get sensitive over this issue. To each his own rite? For me, i do realise the importance of having friends around even though i am married and with kid. Cause we never know what will our husband do next. He may love me and be attentive to me now but sooner or later, when he kena strike TOTO, he may want to enjoy his life with other woman. And my child? My child dah besar jadi teenagers rebellious asik tak nak balik rumah aje. Then i have no one at home and will start looking for friends but friends all cabut already liao. How like that?

I think kan, topic dah lari. But the conclusion is, i am trying my best to find a jolly good time to meet with my girlfriends after work ok? I am trying and will try sampai lah no one is willing to ask me out again. LOL!

Ok let’s go back to my story pasal tidur rumah in law and all.

At last, my MIL suggested that i sleep over her place lor then go back to my place on weekends lor. Haiyah, still it is a No-No situation for me. You know how leceh or not? I have to bring over my clothes and my shoes and my underwear and all and yada yada yada….But…errrr…i guess i have to do that la even though i am a bit reluctant. So this is what i am gonna do.

Tonight, i am sleeping over at my MIL’s place with Shibly. After work, i will go back to my place first then mandi and pack what baju to wear for work tomorrow then kemas sikit rumah then go my MIL’s place.

Tomorrow, i will sleep at my own place and will plan to get both my MIL and FIL to send Shibly to my place and will sacrifice my duit jajan naik taxi lagi for the next morning.

And so, bergilir-gilir lah sampai my laki finish his reservist.

What’s with this reservist eh? I kinda starting to hate it because it makes me bingit and tak suka sorang kat rumah with the anak. Very troublesome you know? VERY IRRITATING! And to find a cab in the morning at my area is not that easy. But so far so good lah. LIncah sikit taxi sampai. If not, selamat ah dgn dukung budak satu tangan and hail cab with another tangan. Grrrrrrrr. Almost tempted to take urgent leave today you know?

Oh well! What to do? Anyway, i didn’t celebrate new year eve pun. Rot at home with my favourite couple and watched movie. Itupun semua dah tidur. Hur hur hur.

Ok lah bye. I really dont know what to say already. I am suffering here. Anyone willing to volunteer send Shibly and me to work every morning? LOL! Thank you many many!