3:55 amFeeling sick
At this hour, 2:52am, i am still awake and lively not because i can’t wait to sahur but because i am too hungry and badly need something nice to eat. Therefore, i have decided to cook mee goreng pedas (those maggi kind) to fill up my tummy before i continue my mission to nurse my sick boy.
Shibly is falling sick due to high fever. I hope it’s not the disease from which my dad has just brought upon himself, H1N1 cause the other day, when i visited him, i forgotten to throw away the mask and left it in the car. The next thing i saw, Shibly was playing with my mask and wipe himself with it! Gosh!
I was being scolded by my husband of course, but that doesn’t mean he could have fever due to that right? Ok, touchwood!
I was feeling miserable since the 2nd day of fasting because i couldn’t fast. I was feeling so dehydrated as Shibly refused to bug off from my tetek. I mean, breastfeeding mum would understand what would happen when your child is falling sick. All they want to do is to keep on being fed with your milk until they feel better or when they really fell asleep. I was sweating all over especially when his fever was very high. I could feel the heat and i pity my boy but feel so helpless. The only thing to soothe him is to milk him, that’s it. 
To add thing worst, my hubby was not feeling well too due to his migrane. So yesterday morning, both daddy and son went to the doctor and both got 2 days MC. I think it doesn’t really help much for my case because i am left only with one day child care leave. So, in other words, i have to use my one day leave too.
Being at home with both sick child and husband doesn’t really help at all. No one to help me with the simple house chores, cook porridge for Shibly and etc. I feel like crying and frustrated at the same time but i knew i couldn’t do much. Sigh…. this is very challenging for me. I had to drink plain water every here and then just to prevent myself from falling sick too.
To get Shibly take with his medicine is another disaster for both hubby and me. His wailing, crying, pushing and etc was really challenging for us. He will vomit everything out and there it goes, we gotta clean up the affected areas, gotta make him change his clothes and all were really annoying. But still as a parent, we gotta keep cool and told him nicely that everything is going to be fine. There were times where hubby and i gotta argue because we found that there’s always something wrong with the things we done and with Shibly cries and all really make the both of us panic and frustrated with each other.
And then, just when everything went smoothly at work, meaning, all correspondence and emails are being replied up to-date, i have to take urgent leave for 2 days. My job is the kind where you have to come to work everyday to maintain and ensure that you have replied to customer’s query and make sure all applications to be done at the soonest. Aiyah, in other words, must be all up to-date lah. But now, since i’ve took 2 days leave, i really gotta buck up and clear all the shits at work comes Wednesday. That’s the reason why i’ve tweet less at work.
Sometimes i wish at this point of time, i could rely on pacifier so that Shibly could have something to suck on rather the relying on my breast. Wish i could have a maid to look after him whilst i took a nap. Wish i could wish so many things right now. Hur hur hur.
Ok, its time for me to take 5 before Shibly calls for my milk again.
Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends. 
