If you have not been following my tweet, I have been diagnosed with gestational pregnancy (diabetes). I was actually shocked to find out about it but at the same time, i do have the strong feeling that i might have developed that illness due to my family history. Both my parents have diabetes so it is not something new to learn about it. I am strictly on diet now because i do want to have a healthy pregnancy and wouldn’t want to cause any harm to myself and my darling baby.
I was selected by KKH ( of course have to be selected lah, duh!) to have a diabetic class on last Monday. It was relaxing and all we did was eat, talk, watch video and have a walk. There were 4 female patients which consists of 2 Malays, 1 Chinese and 1 Filipino. We made friends and it was a fun experience. One of the Malay girl, whom i thought was older than me, had this kind of weird personality. I mean, eating personality. She don’t eat fruits and drinks milk. When we asked her why, she just simply told us that ever since she was born, she has not been eating fruits and she doesn’t even know why she hated fruits so much. Im not sure about milk though, cause i believe as a baby, we need MILK to survive right? So i didn’t bother to ask much about why she hated milk so much. Ha ha!

Anyway, to end my story today, i am glad to attend the class held by KKH because it made me realise the importance of eating healthy foods. I was so ignorance in the past and that leads me to become like this. I was sad but at the same time, i am glad that God has opened my eyes to be more careful in my diet. Doesn’t mean you are skinny, you can gobble up any foods you like. Skinny people have the high chances of diabetes whilst fatty people might get high cholesterol easily. So mummies or mummies to be, please take care of yourself, especially when you have family history with high blood pressure or diabetes.
I will update again. I pwomise!!

With Love,
Natyler.

I no longer has to worry about continuing to breastfeed him until dont know how many more years to go. I think he slowly get the sign that I am pregnant. NOw, i get to relax more and concentrate on my pregnancy.

I am currently in my 16 weeks (4 mths) and comes April, i will get to know the gender of my baby. I am as usual, excited, just like how i first get to know that I am pregnant with Shibly. The feeling of being a mother again is so priceless and that i must learn how to cope with 2 kids in future.

Cant wait to shop for baby stuffs all over again. It it is a boy, it would be great, at least Shibly has someone to fight fight with. If it is a girl, hmm..bonus for me. Looks like i gotta spend more money for her clothings and all.

Wish me luck!

Real Baby Milk Managing Director, Arwen Folkes, aged 32, found it incredibly difficult to feed her first baby, Milo. “I had great support from my husband. Without his encouragement I’d have never got through when it was really challenging in the beginning, without his encouragement I don’t think I would have succeeded.”  – This is true and it happened to me. Thank you hubby.

Breastfeeding mothers were asked last week by www.realbabymilk.org what were the best ways that their partners could lend a helping hand.

Most men enjoy helping and looking after their baby as much as women do. However, the closeness that breastfeeding mums enjoy excludes them from the feeding and nurturing their offspring and can leave some men feeling left out or redundant. However, only 30% said that they suspected that their partners would like them to bottle-feed instead so that they could feed their babies too.

Breastfeeding may look like ‘sitting around doing not very much’; in reality the demands can be exhausting with her baby’s needs taking up most of the hours of day and night. A mum’s routine is restricted round a continuous cycle of feed, wind, change, settle, sleep and with little respite in between. Husbands and partners play a huge part in enabling mums to breastfeed successfully for as long as they wish to do so. Their supportive role should not be underestimated. Women are not always good at identifying what their partners can do to be most helpful.

Bottle feeding is great because men can take part in helping you feed your baby, but does that mean that if you chose to breastfeed then you have to struggle on alone? Many women may complain that men have a ‘blind spot’ when it comes to household chores but they also acknowledge that a great partner is a great father and between, what may sound like nagging; they are often the unsung heroes of successful breastfeeding.

I’m very lucky, my husband is absolutely fantastic! When he comes home from work he gets ‘stuck in’ straight away. He recognises I’ve been working just as hard at home, feeding a baby and entertaining a toddler, as he has at work all day. We both know that once tea, bath and bedtime stories are out of the way we get our evening to ourselves.” – Anna Robinson (Age 27, breastfed for 6 ½ and 7 ½ months)

“When things were difficult in the early weeks and I got mastitis he would encourage me to keep going even when I begged him to get formula. He knew that breast feeding was what I wanted and sometimes had to be tough with me when I was ready to give in. I’m really grateful for that support as without it I wouldn’t have got through the early weeks. We agreed on what we both wanted to do before the birth and stuck to it”. – Claire Tapping (Age 32, breastfed for 9 ½ months)

Real Baby Milk’s ‘Top Tips for Dads’ are the frequently cited suggestions of 60 breastfeeding mothers. Most men would like to find the best way to support their breastfeeding partners but aren’t always sure of the best ways to do so.

Real Baby Milk Top 20 Tips for Dads.

1. Fetch a feeding cushion and help her position your new baby correctly. In the early days this is really helpful. (this one my laki ada buat jugak)

2. Make sure she is comfortable. Pass her the remote, telephone or cup of tea. Bring her drinks and snacks. See she has a glass of water at least to hand as breastfeeding can be thirsty work. (ni my laki ada malas sikit nak buat)

3. Picking up your baby in night and bring it over to her in the night for a feed is a small kindness. Offering to wind or settle the baby down afterwards will also be appreciated. Her rest is important as she also has the day ahead to cope with. (yg part ni, ada jugak lah dia buat tapi tak selalu)

4. Defend her choices with midwives and health visitors and make sure you know her own mind. Encourage her to stick with her choice to breastfeed when things are getting tough. She’ll thank you in the end if giving up is something you knew she would regret. (yang ini my laki ada buat)

5. Do the bath routine with your baby and getting them ready for bed. It’s great bonding time for dads. (yes he still did this till now)

6. Carry your baby in a sling and let them have as much skin-to-skin contact with you too. (yea ni pun my laki masih buat)

7. Compliment her on how well she is doing and how proud you are and field any negative comments that are made about breastfeeding and respond appropriately. (hmm…its true!)

8. Tell her she looks nice even when she is feeling awful. (errm…yg part ni my laki jarang2 cakap. most of the time he always say i look very bacin)

9. Do some household chores without being asked. (oh ho ho ho….yang ini TAK ADA pun!!)

10. Give her a chance to have a lie-in or take the baby out for a walk so she can rest. (grrr..ni takde!)

11. Cook a nice healthy, nutritious meal or leave her something tasty prepared in the fridge that she can microwave for her lunch time. (my laki tak pandai masak..tak macam yg si dektu??)

12. Cut up her dinner for her without having to be asked. Babies seem to have the instinct to feed just when it’s your meal time too. She’ll appreciate being able to feed herself with her one free hand. (so sad, this one also nope)

13. Change nappies and pack the baby bag for outings. (haaa..ni my laki dah lama tak take turn)

14. Do the shopping. It’s much quicker for you to do it than for her to have to take the baby with her.

15. Keep the older children entertained and busy so that she can feed in peace without being pestered by jealous siblings

16. Get rid of unwanted guests in the house at feeding times. Think about the tables you chose in cafes, and make sure she can breastfeed discreetly if she is uncomfortable doing so in public.

17. For long journeys, plan breastfeeding stops built in.

18. If she gives you a bottle of expressed milk then let her have the bit of well-deserved baby-free time to herself. A 20mins break might make the world of difference to her.

19. Make sure she has lots of chocolate available. Buy flowers and run a nice bath for her when she looks tired. 2

0. Don’t pester to get your sex life back on track.

Everytime during office hour, i would normally take a break about 20 minutes for my milking session. So per day, i need at least 2 times to pump out my milk. Nowadays, since my milk is decreasing, I will just do it once a day. It depends on my mood actually. Sometimes there are more, sometimes there are less. The milk will only produce more if I feel more relaxed but not when I’m stressed up at work.

After im done with everything, i would normally go to the pantry and washed whatever that is needed to be washed. So everytime any mary, jane and achi went to the pantry, they will bump into me and started with the very normal question ” Eh? You still breastfeeding?” And i told them yes.

So came this ‘experienced’ Ah Sor in my office telling me that breastfeeding is very good. She praised me for being a good mother and encouraged me to continue breastfeeding. Thank you! (lol).

This Ah-Soh is around late 40s or early 50s and told me about her wonderful experience of breastfeeding. She said that her mum used to breastfeed her and her siblings as they were very poor last time and there is no formula milk during their time. So they have to depends on their mum’s milk and all of them has grown healthy. She even adviced me to eat a lot of fish and soups and eat nutrious foods only. Everytime she saw me at the pantry, she will repeat the story again and again until i began to wonder, why she keep repeating about her mother? What happened to her then? Did she ever breastfeed her kids?

I wanted to ask her that soalan cepu emas but i decided not to. At the first place, she never mentioned anything about her children or spouse. It is always about her siblings and mother. So i assumed that she is not married even though she can be a grandmama. But ok lah. She’s cute lah at least she encouraged me to breastfeed my boy.

Then came this another lady. Same2 lah like that Ah sor age. Hers is very special because she started to talk about her past and how she used to breastfeed her son. She told me that she didn’t breastfeed for long because she realised that her milk turns to be yellow colour. Very sticky yellowish colour instead of the normal yellowish/white colour. I suspected that she may be referring to the colostrum,

The thin yellowish fluid secreted by the mammary glands at the time of parturition that is rich in antibodies and minerals, and precedes the production of true milk. Also called foremilk.

 She then thought that it was not healthy and decided to pump and throw the whole lot away. Everyday she suffered the same incident and decided to go to her gynae for help.

She was informed by her gynae that her case is very rare because not every woman is lucky to have that huge amount of foremilk. She got scolded by her gynae for throwing it away. If im not mistaken, that colostrum is found during the first few days of latching. I am still confused and till now, i am wondering if there is really such a milk?

Then the last thing i heard was that, she told me that she even went to  this so called organisation, it is something meant for those people who sufferred AIDS, its not breastfeeding association or quit smoking assosication, (lol) and i can’t remember what she did over there. It was strange but unique. But entah eh? I am not sure whether if this really happened and if she’s telling me the truth and nothing but the truth.

Then came another lady, telling me that i am very lucky because i still have milk! I asked her why is that so? Then she started to tell me that hers is useless even though she has big boobs but there is no milk! If you tell me this before im married, i would have believed you 100% ok? heheeheh. Ok then i just smiled and nodded to show that yeah i got you. Don’t worry. Lol.

Then next came another lady telling me that her baby doesn’t want her milk. I was shocked and asked her, WHY? I was told that, “my baby keep pushing my nipple away and showed a sign to vomit! I guess they are used with formula so i decided to stop giving my breastmilk”. Wahh…the way she talked to me like….” ya lor…like that lor…dont want then dont want lor….”

Then a friend told me that her case of not b/f her baby is because her baby cannot latch on her nipple cause she got BIG nipple. I then started to have that imaginary nipple to see how BIG is that BIG nipple? hmmmmm….

You see, i learn new things everyday, especially about breastfeeding issues. Different people with different reasons. Some are genuine and some are fakes. I prefer those who tell me that they are lazy and give up on b/f than to tell me 1001 reasons why they CANNOT b/f. It is okay. We’re all human beings and we are not here to judge others. It doesn’t mean that when you b/f, you are the most perfect mum in the world. Merepek lah ok?

So many stories and so many reasons. If i were to count that, it will never end. As the saying goes, aku peh suka ah nak breastfeed ke tak nak. Ko apa hal siak?

LOL!

If not because of my friends and family members’s support, I wouldn’t make it this far. And the first person that I would like to thank is my gf, Ima. She is the bestest gf since I was in Secondary One.

When I first gave birth to Shibly, I thought that breastfeeding is just another not so important issue and that it can be done on and off whenever I like. I thought that I have the power to control my milk and decide when I should give my boy and when is the time that I should relax. But boy, I was wrong.

 I was fortunate that Ima was with me during the first day of my labour. Right after when the nurse came in and told me to milk my boy, I thought of asking for formula since I wasn’t ready to breastfeed him. When the nurse left, Ima came to me and asked if I wanted to breastfeed him or decides on formula. And so I chose to feed him with formula milk but Ima told me that breastfeeding is good and that I should try to breastfeed him. Of course lah I was reluctant because I don’t know how it feels if Shibly sucks my nipple. Will it be very ticklish? Steamy and some other nonsense dirty thoughts that came through my mind. Will there be any milk on my breast?

 Ima then asked for my permission if she could teach me how to breastfeed. Again, I felt reluctant but then I slowly began to open up my mind and think positively. I loosened up my buttons and let her touched my breast. It was weird I tell you but I have no choice and let her demo how to get the milk out of my breast. I was really blur and she told me to turn and twist my nipple until the milk came out. Well, to make it short, she then asked me to carry Shibly and hold him near my breast. I then told her..”tak payah dulu lah. Shibly tgh tidur tu. Dia blum nak susu lagi.” (Padahal dah takut tau nak tetekan Shibly)

Right after I told Ima that, Shibly then cried. I was like lar macam tau pulak budak ni. So I brought him near to my breast and kept quiet. Ima then told me that I have to be very patience and not to give up on him. Again, I was really blur. I tried to bring his mouth closer to my nipple but Shibly doesn’t seem to respond. He just kept quiet and still searching on something to suck. I then realised that newborn baby need time to be introduced to a thing called nipple. Although they may learn to suck their thumb in our womb, that doesn’t mean that they automatically knows how to suck our nipple. I began to give up cause it was kinda of tiring and frustating to see him struggling on my breast and started to cry. But luck was on my side. About 5 minutes later, Shibly started to recognise my nipple and began to suck slowly. And when he suck, I felt very stiffed. I was afraid to move just in case Shibly started to feel irritated with the movement of my body. Ima then gave me a pat and praised Shibly for being such a clever baby. I was happy but still lost why she did that.

Anyway, I did ask her how long do I need to breastfeed him. I was told that I have to breastfeed him as long as he wants. I was not happy with the answer and asked her again, you mean like what? 30 mins? 1 hour? She just smiled at me and told me to be patience. Shibly will know when to stop when he’s full. I still don’t get the whole thing. My mistake was, I didn’t bother to read more about breastfeeding when I was pregnant. I was being ignorant. So many questions lingered in my mind when I breastfeed him. I kept asking myself ada susu ke? Kenyang ke budak ni?

I was discharged from the hospital the next following day. I was very confident with the whole thing when I reached home. Then the nightmare started during the 2nd day. My breast started to swell and my milk started flowing from my breast. It was damn fucking pain. Yeah, I was very pandai because as mentioned earlier, I thought that I could control when to give and when not to give. Although the nurse has briefed us to feed our baby every 3 hours or when our breast has shown the sign of engorgement, I still took no notice of it. Very ignorant and arrogant I tell you. Stupid pun ada jugak lah. I cried and cried and didn’t know what to do. I tried to pump out my milk but it didn’t work and plus my nipple started to swell very badly. I had to use my hand and also warm towel to massage my breast and to let the milk out. I blamed my husband because he was one of the ppl who encouraged me to breastfeed Shibly. I also kinda blamed Ima who pandai2 taught me to breastfeed. At the end of the day, I was the one yang merana giler tetek bengkak bawah bengkak baby nangis2 nak susu. Takde orang pun nak share my pain. I tell you I was feeling so fucked-tup.

I was lucky my MIL was there and offered to sleep over my house and took care of Shibly. About 2 or 3 mths later, I thought the nightmare of having Shibly to struggle with my breast for milk has gone. But Shibly seems to be very uncomfortable with my breast at times. I was very stressed and felt that I have failed to breastfeed him. I then decided to google in the net and called Ima for more informations on breastfeeding issues. I then succeeded till now. My biggest mistake was that I mixed with formula milk all the way till now. Partly because I felt that I don’t have enough milk since I have trained to give him partial of formula milk when he was still a newborn baby. My mindset always focuses on fear. Fearing that Shibly won’t have enough milk and that my body can never produced more milk. Fearing that my nipple will get bengkak and berdarah again, (lol) and a lot of other things lah! I guess that is where the mistake lies.

Some mothers thought they cannot produce any milk even though they have bigger breast. That is not true. It is either you choose to endure the pain or give up and let your baby be fed with formula. It is either you choose to sleep the whole night without being disturbed (let your husband or helper to buat susu formula when baby cry for milk) or you choose to wake up every 2 or 3 hours at night to feed your baby. It is either you choose not to hegeh2 and nak senang hati goyang kaki going out dgn friends or family members or going out with friends/family and carik tempat nursing room to tetekkan anak. Or being muka selamba breastfeed kan budak in the public (in discreet way lah of course).

The bottom line is, all women are born with MILK. The only thing is whether you want to maintain the milk in your breast or not. Kalau nak ikutkan hati, my tetek pun dah takde susu lagik. Dah kering. Ini pun ala kadar aje. Of course I am not talking about mothers who gave birth to twins/triplets. I have to understand their situations. It is not easy ok to breastfeed your baby. Satu baby aje macam² azab. I cannot and really cannot imagine nak jaga dua or tiga budak at one time. Satu baby aje I dah feel frustrated. Duh.

And yes, the only thing that you can stop to breastfeed your baby is when they have started to show the sign that they are not interested with your milk anymore partly because they knew that the milk is decreasing and they are muak and nak muntah minum your susu tetek. Then they will let you know that they prefer formula milk seratus peratus. Till now, i am still waiting for that sign from Shibly. Everytime i offer tetek, mulut dia menganga aje. Kasi botol susu tolak2. Bila Shib lu mau give up? Heheheheeh.

Well, well, again, I was very lucky to have a very supportive family. My MIL, my mother and my husband has played the biggest role during the first few months of my breastfeeding journey and this is the most wonderful experience throughout my life. Not forgetting Alixara and yes you Ima, you again for giving me the encouragement and advice of breastfeeding!

Breastfeeding also has taught me to quit smoking. I knew of some breastfeeding mums who are still smoking and i don’t understand why they are doing that. Actually this is your personal choice lah whether you want to quit smoking or not. I didn’t want you to think that, ah konek ah breastfeeding bleh buat kita quit smoking. It’s not that ok? It is just about being yourself and how well you want to feed your son. I would love to smoke but memandangkan harga rokok mahal dan rokok illegal susah nak dapat, kim salam sudah lah ye. LIke my husband used to say, you hisap i punya lagik bagus. Free dan memuaskan. LOL! LOL!

I hope other mums won’t get offended with my entry. This is ‘no pun intended’. I am just sharing aje. Next entry, I will share again with you the many breastfeeding experience mums in my office. The stories are cute and funny! See ya!

Puasa dan Penyusuan

Soalan 1:

Nak bertanya, saya sekarang sedang fully breastfeed baby saya yang berumur almost 4 bulan. Sekiranya saya berhasrat untuk berpuasa, akan berkurangkan jumlah pengeluaran susu saya?

Soalan 2:

Saya pun nak bertanya, baru ni saya berpuasa ganti saya rasa mcm tak larat nak berpuasa, rasa lapar yg amat sgt. bolehkah sesapa boleh berikan cara pemakanan yg betul untuk ibu yg menyusu cam kita smua ni. lagi pun bulan puasa semakin dekat dah ni…

Jawapan:

Re: Puasa & Penyusuan

Apabila ibu yang menyusu berpuasa memang akan berlaku sedikit perubahan di dalam pengeluaran susu. Biasanya, susu akan kekeringan pada penghujung hari menghampiri waktu berbuka. Maklumlah kita tidak mengambil sebarang makanan dan minuman sepanjang waktu berpuasa.

Walau bagaimanapun, untuk mengatasi keadaan ini, saya cadangkan beberapa petua:

1. Sepanjang waktu malam (iaitu ketika kita boleh makan dan minum) susukanlah bayi kita semaksimum yang mungkin. Ini dapat mengurangkan permintaannya terhadap susu ibu di siang hari.

2. Minumlah lebih air di malam hari. Makan makanan yang berkhasiat serta amalkan sunnah nabi iaitu buah kurma. Kandungan khasiat di dalam buah kurma amat tinggi dan dapat membantu ibu menyusu.

3. Apabila telah hampir waktu imsak, bacalah ayat Al-kauthar dan minumlah seteguk air kosong sambil berdoa agar dikurangkan rasa dahaga sepanjang waktu berpuasa.(kerana lazimnya ibu menyusu akan berasa dahaga selepas menyusukan bayi)

4. Jika perlu, ambillah vitamin dan makanan tambahan untuk sepanjang bulan puasa untuk memastikan badan kita mempunyai tenaga yang mencukupi untuk menjalani ibadah puasa serta meneruskan tanggungjawab sebagai ibu.

5. Seterusnya berdoalah agar kita diberikan kekuatan dan dipermudahkan untuk melakukan kedua-dua ibadah ini kerana susu ibu adalah rezeki yang dikurniakan Allah terhadap anak kita dan jika telah ditentukan rezeki untuknya, pasti ada jalan untuk rezeki itu sampai kepada bayi kita dengan apa cara sekalipun.

Wallahua’lam.

Anyway, i dont know whether if i am going to fast this year. Last year so dasyat. Just because i was  37 weeks pregnant, i gave that as an excuse not to fast. Very bad right? And since i have no mensus for the past 10 months, woah, isn’t this a good start for me to start fasting?

I have sort out some plan during this coming Ramadhan. But im not sure if this will be successful. Cause once you started to do the kebaikan, there will always be dugaan to test you. And im so scared of the dugaan. How ah? What if i fail?

Guess this coming month, i got to stand by the formula milk just in case Shibly tak cukup susu from me. Normally during weekends, Shibly will get 100% susu cap gantung from me. Cuba lah kasi dia formula milk, dia akan reject se reject2 nye. Asik nak bergayut aje kat my tetek. LOL!

Plus if I puasa, confirm lemah gila punya and confirm jatuh sakit nye for the first few days of fasting. Ye lah, dah tak biasa kan nak puasa2. This week, last eh nak makan sedap2 during breakfast and lunch time. No more tea break eh. Kalau tak fasting pun, kena do it discreetly. Macam pencuri ah. LOL!!

Oh, i already got some recipes on what to cook during Ramadhan’s month. I am so semangat to have my own homecooked meal during weekends and mostly for Sahur. See? Semangat gila siak. Blum start puasa dah pikir pasal nak masak apa. Orang fikir lah pasal nak buat amal ibadat ke, nak sembahyang terawih ke, etc…. Hehehehehe. But i told my hubby that he got to co-operate with me if he wants to have a homecook meal. He has to look after Shibly lah so that i can cook peacefully.

I soooooooo miss cooking!!! Dah lama i never cook my Lemak Ayam Padi, my fried Kway Teow, my Ayam masak Kicap, my Ikan Pari masak Lada Hitam and my Curry Ikan. Sob sob sob…..

Anyway, Selamat berpuasa in advance ye, just in case i am too weak to update my blog. LOL!! And ya, as IF i can fast for the whole month? :p

Last two weeks, i went to this particular clinic to seek consultation and also, ehem, asked for “a day off” from work. She asked me when was my last mensus and I couldnt really find the exact answer when was the last time i had my mensus. She then perused my file again and asked whether if i still breastfeed my baby and my answer was yes.

So finally, she gave me a smile and asked me how long do i intend to breastfeed my baby. Again, i couldn’t really find the perfect answer to her question and told her that well, maybe until my baby don’t want my milk anymore. She finally opened up her mouth again and talk about the breastfeeding topic and claimed that she cannot understand how some mothers can still breastfeed their baby till 2 years plus and so.

I was looking at her curiously, and was about to ask her why does she feel that way? Isn’t she a qualified female doctor? I was about to ask a sensitive question whether is she married and whether does she has a child on her own?

I then decided to shut up and let her continue about that topic. Then the next thing i heard that she said it is okay to breastfeed your baby up to six months, or perhaps, the maximum to one year. She feels that one year of breastfeeding is more than enough and if some mothers go beyond that one year, she couldn’t imagine what else is going to happen. Oh, she gave me that ”yucky, disgusting look” when she mentioned about that breastfeeding issue. Not forgetting that she advice me not to listen to others to breastfeed your baby until one year plus.

Of course i feel a bit insulted. I feel so discouraged. I feel a bit embarassed. Embarassed to who? Im not sure too. Hahah. After i got my MC, i left the clinic with a feeling mixture of joy and sadness. Joy because i got the MC but the sadness part, about what the doctor had told me off earlier.

I told my husband what had happened during my meeting with that not-so-keen-to-breastfeed-for-long female doctor. My husband was not really happy to hear that. He just told me not to listen to her and just follow my heart. I just keep numb about it and well, yeah, just follow my heart.

Well to each his own. I will stop to breastfeed my son when the time is right. Right now, i am happy with what I am doing now and contented that Shibly still wants my milk.

I have no comments on the new proposal of the new maternity packages. It sounds good but still, i doubt what else is going to rise after this hoo-haa. It is still stressful for a family like me who still got to work and help the husband to support our family. Unless if i can be a high style life SAHM. I don’t mind bearing another 3 or 4 kids!

Ok but again, kalau ada rezeki, kita terima dengan tangan yang terbuka. Does that mean that the ‘tetek’ akan terbuka lagi? Bila nak game eh? LOL!!

Last Friday, i had dinner with two of my favourite girlfriends at Tiffany. I must say that the name of the restaurant sounded gorgeous but the food was ok ok. Not bad for errr…not a big eater person like me. Heeheee.

Anyway, i don’t really know who paid for the bills. I just don’t care cause all i know is that someone must pay for my foods. LOL! Ok lah, i’d better thank Mariani and Xara for the foods and well, for the free ride! I salute you both ah. Suka korang jadi driver glamour? ;p

My food and Xara’s food. Where’s yours Yani?

My food!

Nowadays, im kinda lazy to photoshop my pics.

Xara posing with her car, only when the husband is outstation lah! Alar..auto car. I also can drive what? :p

Do i look like the owner OR the owner of pencuci kereta? Hurhurhur…..

Bestfriendforever! I no bestfriend. Sister-sister is OK for me. But sister jangan sembarang sister. Silap haribulan terus jadi TWISTER! LOL!!!

Ok next….

I went to the World Breastfeeding week last Saturday held around the Clarke Quay area. I was late but still gotta pay $10 for the registration fees. Not bad lah.  I think i paid for the goodies bag. Heheheh! And thankfully, my husband did not complain about his petrol and yada yada yada when i told him that i want to have some exposure out there. LOL! Luckily, one of my colleagues also agreed to go there. Heee!

Shibly was busy looking at Naimi. Cheeky Shibly!

Honestly speaking, i dont find the event interesting. Nothing much lei. With so much noises (crying babies and parents who had to coo their baby or run after the toddlers), of course i expected that to happen, it made me feel uncomfortable to enjoy the talk. Guess it is more suitable for mothers who just gave birth or wish to know more about breastfeeding. But somehow, i feel good to see those breastfeed mum who made an attempt to attend for the event.

Hai..leceh betul nak posing amik gambar with kids eh?

I guess Shibly is now bigger than me. Scary huh? He’s getting heavier too and i just can’t hold him any longer. Very tiring!

It has been quite sometime for us to step our foot to such places. I mean to Clarke Quay. It was so boring in the day and we had no idea where to eat. Oh, of course there were places like Fish & Co and all those restaurant but…errr…standard ah, we had to save money and had to choose places like hawker centre…kesian eh? Alar..senang kata b.r.o.k.e ah. Lol! Couldn’t find a suitable place to eat and finally we settled down at Long John Silver. So happy siah!!

The 3 of us  had to tapau the food away since there were no place for us to sit. Thanks to the very much younger generation (the teenagers lah) for conquering almost the whole space of LJS. Grrr!But really lah, they are so free you know. Saturday afternoon chill at Clarke Quay with friends, laughing and singing away like nobody cares. Haiz. Teringat masa zaman teenagers dulu. Haizzzz….

Ok lah. Back to reality. I am contented with my life. Lesser friends but a happy family. That’s what i need most right now.

Happy belated birthday to me. I am Thirteen years old. Thank you.

Benciii kannnn!!!!!! I dont like you know?????? With that sum of money, i can buy few pairs of clothes or shoes!  But no use crying over the petrol which has already been consumed by his ASS 13. Hur hur hur. Well, at least it can last us about a week? That’s how FEXpensive (it means FuckingExpensive) his petrol is.

Ok lah, dont talk about it. I am actually SINCERE paying for his petrol. Can i be a Isteri MintakTali? Nak gantung diri ah pasal tak sanggup nak kenangkan duit minyak tu lagi. LOL!

After we went to top up the petrol early in the morning, we went to fetch my mum for her routine check up at Qtown Polyclinic. That one also i got burnt with about $$$? Ahhh..that one i dont mind because all along, i have been religiously paying for my mum’s medical bill. Well, i am not boasting or proud of doing that you know. At times, i do feel frustrated that i still gotta bear with all these. Before i got married until lah i am married, i always have that never-ending commitment to pay this and that. See lah, how to be come a full time housewife? I ever thought of quitting my job but that means i cannot give my mum her allowance and pay for her medical fees. And i cant bear to let that happen too!

Ok back to my story, after we sent my mum to Polyclinic, we decided to go Parkway Parade because Shibly sebenarnya budak Parkway Parade. From the time i pregnant until i gave birth, we have always been to Parkway Parade and it looks like Parkway Parade is the only place in Singapore that we can go. LOL! I cant even understand why i love going to Parkway Parade. I spent another $$$ for the groceries, including my Anmum’s Milk which need to be top up. And oh, talking about milk, i am one happy mummy and i am thankful to God because my milk supply is increasing!

I know it is not even 150 ml. Come to think of it, i used to have only about 50ml – 60ml in the beginning. But now, it has increased more than 100ml.

See this milkbag?

Very full i like! But please eh? I gotta to pump it TWICE just to get that full amount. Heeee! All for the sake of my Shibly, the mummy gotta take a break during office hour TWICE just to pump it out. Looking at the milk reminds me of this song, “My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard…” LOL! But for my case, it will be like ” My milkbag brings Shibly boy to the bed” hahahah..ok ok i know NOnsenSE!

Anyway,  i am also a proud mummy because i bought Shibly a toy which cost me $99 but lucky got 40% discount. You know, maybe for those working mums like me, im sure you know how it feels to buy something for your son with your hard earned money rite? It feels difference when you bought that toy with your own money instead of the husband. Furthermore, i like that toy so much but unfortunately, Shibly doesn’t like it. But no worries,  it takes time for him to be familiar with that new toy.

I didnt shop anything for myself at all although i would love to buy dresses and make-ups. But what to do, im not the type of mummy who can shop as and when i like it. I also need to wait for bonuses just to get something expensive for my boy.

I am not complaining lah. I also didnt say that my husband never feed me. LOL.  It’s just that we are not that fortunate to spend unnecessary things like last time.I love my husband and i feel that i ought to share burdens together with him. That is the reason why i dont like to cling on to him or keep whining at him just to get what i want. I rather get things on my own than to make him slogging like hell just to please me. Oh please. Im not that kind. You know i still heard stories about wife yang suka pretend pengsan2 just to get the laki buy for her jewelleries and all. Eeeee, that’s is so old school punya story. Very typical right? LOL!

Ok lah dont talk about those typical wives lah. Let’s talk about my penyakit kulit! LOL!!!!

Do you know that i have eczema?  Scarryyy and eeee!!!

Ok lah ok lah. Let’s make it that i have love-bite on my neck and my husband saw it and the punishment is, i have to work and help him pay for his petrol. LOL!!!!

Of course NO lah!! I didn’t know why suddenly i have this skin problem. After birth ni macam2 hal tau!

My hand also kena!

Wah lau! The eczema keep on developing at other part of my body too! I really need to see doctor on this. Money again liao!

I know lah very disguting right?Ok lah. DOnt see lor. Let’s look at how SHibly drive his daddy’s car ok?

Wah my boy was so brave to drive the car although it was raining ok?

Relax ah Shib,why your face like that?

Oh was it because you are pissed that mummy has been camwhoring again in the car? Like FOREVER and ever gitu tak habis2 nak camwhore inside the buruk Ass 13?

Mummy think it is ok to camwhore at daddy’s buruk car because today, like for the FIRST TIME, mummy has to pay full for daddy’s full tank petrol. So fair apa? Bau petrol pun jadi ah!

LOL!

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A friend happened to link her article about breastfeeding to me which i find it interesting and funny too! Very sarcastic and tongue lashing, but no offence hor as this is good for someone like me who still get comments from others about breastfeeding. It can be annoying when they say skinny (but now i dah tak skinny lagi)  and flat chested (pun dah tak sangat ah, lol!) people like me still got milk meh? ;p

“Breastfeeding is a personal choice. Having a child likewise, is a very big commitment. We want only the best for our children.
And the best is to not substitute the main food of our treasures called MILK.
Because..
Cow’s milk = meant for cows
Human’s milk = meant for humanIts common sense right… so cow’s milk can NEVER ever be superior than Human milk. Don’t ever let any Aunties-who-think-they-are-Einstein induce you to think that way… unless you’re that AUNTIE EEKS (Get out of my blog)!!That said… I must stress this important point to the PEOPLE WHO DO NOT BREASTFEED. If you DON’T breastfeed, you are NOT QUALIFIED to comment about breastfeeding really. Read this:1) Don’t pluck statements from the air… I’ve done so much research and your statements without claims…damn! It just makes you look stupid.2) Don’t ask a lactating mother if there is enough milk, it obviously sounds like you failed breastfeeding yourself, or have never breastfed before, thus making you sound stupid as well. And, ITS RUDE!!! SO SHUT UP!3) Don’t say breastfeeding is close to impossible… you’re the lazy one actually, giving so many excuses for yourself rather. Don’t pull someone else down with your failure.

4) Don’t question the size of the breast, big or small breasts produce enough milk. Size in this case doesn’t matter at all. (But penis size does LOL.) Demand = supply. If your baby drinks alot from your breast, your breast will naturally have/make enough for the baby. The human body is a very complex organism, let’s just say its a miracle… Never mind that biology theory. Since the question, ‘your breasts so small can ar?’ is a very retarded(which makes you a retard to ask that) question.

5) Don’t say, ‘Not everyone can breastfeed’. Only doctors can say that. There are the minority who truly have medical complications FORCING them not to breastfeed. To the rest who *couldn’t* breastfeed, it was YOUR CHOICE to stop. It can be because you were

A) Lazy = You need to sleep at night or you will die??
B) Easily coerced<– then you’re not fit to be a mama.. Baby is yours, not theirs. Still your choice eh…
C) Give up easily = because it is painful or tiring. Not everyone can make sacrifices. Still its your choice.
D) You make believe you will never have enough milk… search within your heart. Unless you have a medical problem, you definitely will have milk. Quit telling yourself and others that some people do not have milk… ITS NOT TRUE. BECAUSE YOU FAILED, so as to comfort yourself, you make others fail as well to nurse your broken heart.

6) There’s so much!!! LOL I mean these people really GOT NOTHING BETTER TO DO LEH! So avoid them at all costs. Get your husband to PROTECT you!! Thats their DUTY, their RESPONSIBILITY!!! If the naysayers still don’t get the hint, SNAP and tell them to ‘SHUT UP’!!! Lock your room door! There’s nothing they can do? What arrest you for breastfeeding your baby??? *scoffs*”

Alhamdulillah, my milk supply is getting better now. Instead of having 50ml aje per session (about 20 minutes expressing the milk), i now get at least 75ml (i stayed for 30 minutes now per session). Maybe because i am the impatient type when comes to expressing milk in a boring office room. Ya, as i mentioned before, my milk supply is not as much as my colleagues who can expressed it at least 150 ml per session.

I have to do 3 sessions of expressing my milk during office hour just to get a 140 ml milk. Tsk tsk. But now, i need only 2 sessions to get the full amount. Fenugreek does help but we must also watch our daily intake of foods and vegetables/fruits. Will work hard more for the milk to increase. Not an easy job i must say because my perut is getting boncit and boncit youuuu! Asik minum susu pagi petang and malam and taik aku sembelit. LOL! Nah, its time to drink more juices.

Really tau. No offence to you people out there. It is Still Your Choice mah? Initially, i dont like breastfeeding but as day grows by, i am becoming more attached with my boy and thus decided to continue breastfeed him until it stop naturally.

Been thinking of having another one, maybe a Girl this time, but well, aku baru shopping sakan beli kasut, baju, seluar, LOL! Nanti lah, nak kena plan cantik molek dulu. Being pregnant is beautiful but nak go through the labour process and the jahit pepek part tu, tak sanggup aku!

Maybe next few days i will blog about my gojane shoes ah. Nowadays macam dah takde ‘kick’ gitu nak update pasal kasut baju beg baru ni suma. I think i am growing older and older and more prone to update about motherhood’s life? Boring kan? More kids birthday bash to attend this week. And it has been like 3 weeks berturut turut si Shibly nye kengkawan buat birthday bash. Kalah Mak dia nye member pun takde nak partay2 ni suma.

My baju tetek sudah sampai. It is very costly for me and I feel it is not really worth it. But ok lah tu. The baju is not really that WOW lah gitu but at least it is convenient for me to breastfeed him in public. Can’t wait to wear it this weekend. Will try not to be lazy to snap some peektures.

Cheers!

I cried because i couldnt get to sleep at all on the first night when i brought Shibly home. I cried when i think that life has totally changed for me. Everywhere i go, Shibly must be the first priority. I cried because i cannot happy happy watch DVD or surf internet and all because I will also tend to fall asleep when Shibly sleeping or i had to pump out the milk as much as I can before it get swollen. I didnt know it is such a hassle to have a big breast. My breast dah macam pakai silicon and i had to change my bra cup all for the sake of my milk yang overflowing.

My breast was damn swollen the other day and i started to feel feverish. Thanks Ann for your concern via sms. You happened to sms me when i was crying. Heee heeeeee…And yes, finally my hubby managed to get Avent nipple cream for me because yang cocoa butter tu takde. Kesian dia pun stress tengok aku nangis2.

Ok, i will try to update as much as I can. I gotta run and do other things before Shibly wake up.

Baby memang cute tapi nak jaganya pun KiUt!! Tetek now very sexy but the swollen pun WOW macam air pepsi. Hur hur hur.

Shibly dah macam pakai tudung…

My cervix has opened up at 2 cm ONLY? Wahahaah!!!!!

Ok guys, i have about 10 more hours to be warded to the hospital because i’ve choosen to induce on 24 October 2007, that is my EDD date. My doctor told me that my baby is too big for my size. I am afraid that I might have to go for C-sect, which i hope no lah. I believe that every woman would prefer natural birth no matter how painful it is. Well, do pray for me so that I have the strength to push my baby out from the tummy. My amniotic fluid is still sufficient at this moment for baby to stay comfortably in my tummy.

This is the battle that I am going to fight with. This is between God and me. It scares me whenever i think of it. I am afraid of the pain too but most importantly, I am afraid that……ahh…ok forget it. It wont be nice talking about it.

I make a request to my hubby that I just want him to be with me starting from 6 am later at the hospital. I want to have a short shower with him first at home as early as 5 am, then i want him to shave my ehem again because now the bulu2 start to tumbuh again and very the itchy. LOL!!! Then tonight i want him to massage my feets and legs rabak2 so that I have a good night sleep. I dont want anybody to be with me except for my hubby once the doctor start to induce me.

Later, im going to have seafood dinner with my very favourite couple at East Coast. Kata orang tu, last ah konon makan berdamai with baby in the tummy. Nanti besok lusa baby dah kluar dah lain sikit. Heheheheh.

Euuuwwww..i cant believe it man!!!!! I really hope everything will goes on smoothly for both baby and me.

Thanks to all my friends who has been so busy sms-ing me for the past weeks and today, my hp macam nak meletup ok because they are so excited whether my baby dah out or not. Heeeee….. I feel so great macam Artist Fofular gituuuuuu!!

Yang lain2 tu, if you all havent buy my baby’s gift yet, please hurry up ok? Especially yang bottle steriliser and basin mandi baby tu ok? Tolong cepat sikit ye? LOL!!!

10 more hours to go before i admitted at KKH. Wooo hooo!! Step makan angin kat hotel posh lah gitu kan?

I was really bored staying at home but ok lah, at least i get to entertain guests who came to visit me for Hari Raya visiting and watched movies and msn-ing and sms-ing friends the whole day. Heeeee!! So today, i’ve decided to get my hubby out to Orchard Road (aku yang bring hubby out eh not hubby bring me out?)

We went to Far East and had our early lunch at Sakura and I was like so jakun not knowing that Sakura dah buat renovation….very nice ambience eh? And the Cockles Fried Kway Teow still maintain, very sedap. From Far East, we walked to Paragon cause I need to buy my breast pump at Metro, since they have promotions there. We walked at the whole Paragon admiring this and that but unfortunately, we were broke so like that lah. We just bought the important stuffs aje. It was very tiring for me because anytime I can give birth on my way back to Far East ok? Heehehhe..but oh, dont worry cause I jolly well know that my baby still dont want to come out yet and that is the reason why I am so bothered to walk all the way to Paragon then to Far East back.

Wanna see how big my tum tum is or not?

Ok and yet I dare to wear so sexily walking at Orchard Road (of course must sexy lah, dah jalan pat Orchard peeeee) and people were all glaring at me like so jakon like that. Duh! Only foreigners smiled at me when they looked at my big tum tum and with my very short skirt ( I miss that batik skirt). Local people looked at me like one kind but I dont give a Hoot because i am Hot! (hot as in panas berpeluh ok?)

Actually I’ve promised to myself that I am not gonna wear short skirt anymore because my tighs now have that purple and red veins but entah why today I dont give a damn about it (maybe that is why local people stare at me kot?) However, I feel that i’d better take the last few shots with this last few moments of 9 months pregnancy. After that no more big tum tum you know?

Hmm..i think i look decent without make up eh?

With my krazeeee hubby…..apa je dektu nak tutup mulut dia. So mengarut you know??

In the car….i left my make up kit inside the car so no choice lor….i have to put on my make up inside the car jugak….

How make up can do magic to your face ahhh….

The hubster’s turn to pose…

Smoking in a cage..heheheh…

And the vain pot me again… always nak step cute aje!! Chet!

So long you know i never pose here and there with my best outfit (like how best gitu) Hahahah!!!!

Its tea time because i was really tired and really cannot tahan. My feet were aching terribly even though i wore my pink adidas sport shoes. And hey, that was me looking candid cum fugly. Hur hur hur!!

And i took the digicam away from him and camwhore myself.

The tired hubby….

Ok count your money properly and its time to pay up the drinks..

And me again action cute. bluek.

That’s for now. I think today will be the last day for me to camwhore with my 39 weeks of pregnancy. Im sure gonna miss these wonderful moment. I dont care lah if I looked like humpty dumpty or teletubby with that short skirt and big tummy. Heeeee…..Now, i nak feeling feeling rasa sakit. Bila ni nak beranak?????

This coming Tuesday is my last check up. Confirm kena cocok lagi!!! Dah 4 kali seh gitu kena cocok? I hate that feeling man…..Duhhh!!!!!

I went for my check up last Tuesday. My gynae told me that my cervix still remains at 1.5 cm. She asked me whether if i want to induce or still wanna wait for the pain to come naturally. Of course i choose to wait for the pain to come naturally. I dont want to kena induce lei….i heard it pains a lot kan?? Noooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

My gynae gave me one last check up on next Tuesday. By the way, i am now in my 39 weeks. By next Wednesday, I am 40 weeks. I hope that baby will come out by this week before baby turns 40 weeks. Boo hoo hoo.

Baby, baby, your mummy dont want to kena induce. So can you please…..please…puhhhleeezzz come out as soon as you can? You are already old enough and big enough to be in my womb. Oh please my baby darling, come out soon so that I can play with you and most importantly, please do not waste your mummy’s leave ok?

On the other note, i would like to congratulate my gf, Arnida, who has gave birth to a baby girl last night. So baby, you see lah, your friend come out already although she is one or two weeks younger than you, how come you still dont want to come out? Ada apa ye kat dalam perut mummy? Suka benar lah anak aku duduk kat dalam lama sikit eh? Heheheheh!!

I remembered that my baby weighs 3 kg during my 37 weeks. Now 39 weeks already and i dont know how many kilo lah yang dia dah gain. Pengsan lei your mummy. I guess this is a test for me. It aint easy to be pregnant and get pregnant. There maybe easy to some but not to people like me. I cant sleep well or sit for too long. My butt got stretch mark and my tighs got the red and purples veins. Lucky my face looks ok and my tummy no stretch mark (yet). Hur hur hur.

Ok peeps, please do pray for me. I have 6 more days to my due date. I wish baby can come out today because at least, it falls on the same birth day as me, 18th. But if no, then haizzz…..maybe 24th jugak lah baby want to come out.

Will update soon…..

Tata…titi….tutu….

I had a false alarm on Sunday morning. I thought it was time for me to give birth. My hubby quickly rushed me to the hospital. I had the contraction and it comes and go every 5 minutes. Even when i was at the registration centre, the pain was still there. So the nurse asked me whether i wanted a painkiller and admit myself straight to the ward or do i need to check first whether my cervix has open up to more than 3 cm.

And so i choose to check my cervix but unfortunately, the cervix still remains at 1.5 cm. Suddenly, there was not much contraction going on when i lay down at the bed. About half an hour later, the doctor told me that i can choose to stay or go home. I choose to go home lah of course. Heeeee!! Buat suspense je!!

My baby still naughty arrrrr…..still want to play around with me. Duh!!

Tomorrow i have another check up. My husband mesti happy punya because dia pun boleh ponteng kerja. Tsk tsk tsk!!

Ok let’s talk about raya pulak lah.

First day, i went to my mum’s place and MIL’s place and to his grandma’s place. Frankly speaking, i am so malas nak jalan raya you know. No new shoes, no new baju, no new handbags and no new make up. Haiz. I really had no mood to jalan raya because i dont know whether if i can fit into my old baju kurung.

Luckily i can still fit into this baju. Baju tahun berapa punya seh. I remembered i wore this baju kurung since my secondary days and surprisingly, it can still fit me even though im 9 months preggie. Only my kain cannot fit at all. The waist is too small and my tummy is too big.

Our baju tak janji. My husband’s baju also baju lama. This year both of us tak bergaya langsung. Semua nya pakai yang lama. Heeeee.

We still sempat to camwhore a bit…my face very bacin you know. I was perspiring like hell!

And finally i got to see my darling nephew, Hafiz. He is so the Gurga-rean lah! So cuteeee!!

Ok that’s for now. I will update soon about my pregnancy. I am so excited to give birth ok? But at the same time, im worried also. Pray for me peeps!!

Im in my 35 weeks now and my baby weighs 2.5 kg. So far so good. Doctor kept asking me the same thing like, “Any bleeding? Baby moving? U ok?” Tak habis2 dengan itu statement. Chet!

I was like so anxious to hear from the doctor whether if my baby is going to have an early birth. I was kind of curious when will be the final say about me giving birth. And then, i learnt that normally, the last check up will have the final say whether if i am ready to give birth or not.

I have already decided when i should start taking my maternity leaves. Some say it is best to take 2 weeks in advance, and some, 1 week in advance. So, i’ve decided to take one week in advance lor. And my next check up will be in 2 weeks time.

I love being pregnant because there are a lot of kind people out there who offered me what I want for my baby. Example, my sister in law has agreed to buy bottles steriliser for me, Shay has agreed to buy me a baby walker, my kakak sedara agreed to buy me a bouncer ( i requested the one that i’ve been wanting to which is a bit expensive lah) and Que wanna buy me tempat apa tu…i dont know what is it called, tempat carry baby lah, yang macam kain punya. Heheheheh.

Last Sunday, both the husband and I went to Parkway Parade cause it’s time to stock up my barang2 dapur. I spent almost $200 just for the food stuffs and some unwanted stuffs too.

: D

Here are some pics that I managed to snap.

By the way Ifah, if you happen to read this, these are the fries that I ever mentioned to you before. Flavour Crisp fries. SEdap! You can find it at NTUC or Giant. I tried looking for it at Sheng Shiong but no have lei.

And then last Monday during my check up, I saw this outift at KKH and so i bought it. So cute!!!!!!!!. Purple colour some more!

I dont know why i love my baby to wear this kind of design. Especially yang bawah dia cover feet dia sekali. Geram youuuu!!!!!

Heheheheh!!! Cant wait to see my darling baby soon. Nampak nye macam tak raya lah aku. It is either i have to tunggu hari. But the best moment is the moment that I am going to take my leave and Sayonara for 3 months to all my colleagues! Heeeeee!!! I had enough ok covering duties and slog like hell to clear my workload with this pregnancy. It aint easy liao!

Alrite! That’s about it. I shall be back later with more stories, I hope so!!