Let me make this entry an interesting one! Will show my month to month pregnancy!

But sorry, i seriously did not record down how many months pregnant i was at that time. I think this photo tells me that i am about 6 weeks pregnant.

This one must be about 3 months pregnant?? What do you think huh?

I dont look like pregnant at all didn’t i? But seriously, these were my pregnancy photos! Heeee!!!

This was my latest photo! 8 months pregnancy!!

Sorry for the poor quality of the photos. Most pics were taken from my Blackberry Storm. Yeah, i hope you enjoy looking at these photos. Will update again but i shall not promise. Heeee!

On another note, i just got to know from hub that his next reservist will be end of August, meaning that once baby is out (tentatively 19 aug’10), hub has to go away for at least 2 weeks. Why must it always happened that way?

I remembered when we first got married, 18 & 19 Aug’06, hub had to leave me for reservist (to Australia somemore) for 3 weeks on Nov’06. Baru kahwin dah kena tinggal laki. Lol!

Then when i gave birth to Shibly, 24 Oct’07, hub had to leave me again for reservist on early Nov’07. And now, it has to happen again. You get what i mean? Why must it always had to be around the most important ‘i-need-my-hubby-badly’ day?

Oh well, that’s for now. Will come and rant more when time permits.

Have a nice day you people!

The second time you did that was when mummy and daddy rushed back from work and were so eager to fetch you home. Although mummy and daddy always complained that we were so tired, never ever once we left you overnight at your Oma’s place. Although mummy and daddy had the intention to watch midnight movies or chilling with friends at pub/cafe and to leave you overnight at Oma’s place, it never happens because we love you too much and we feel like so kesian gitu kena tinggal with Oma.

Today, it happened again. This time round was quite bad because you refused to let mummy or daddy to hold or touch and you wailed so loudly as if mummy and daddy are like strangers to you when we wanted to bring you back home. Mummy almost wanted to cry but mummy wouldnt want to embarass herself and treat it as a small matter. It is not a small matter to mummy, because mummy cannot understand and do not understand why you reacted that way. Was it because mummy has been too hard for you? Did mummy force you to do something that you dont like? Mummy know that although you are only 2 yrs and 5 months old, you are already a smart boy and that you knew what we adults were thinking. Was it because you are angry because mummy no longer wants to breastfeed you? Or was it because mummy is pregnant and that you feel that mummy will not love you anymore?

My dear son Shibly, mummy loves you too much and this is part of the reason why mummy has to blog about this. Although some people may think mummy is crazy and so sensitive nak mampos, mummy will not care a bit of what they feel. Because mummy is the one who gave birth to you and had fight the battle of breastfeeding to breastfeed you tilll this old. Mummy has willing to sacrifice a lot of things for you and mummy feels that mummy has the right to feel sad, hurt and emo with your sudden changes.

As far as mummy could remember, never ever once mummy dares to leave you overnight at your Oma’s place or to anybody’s place. If it ever happened that you stayed at Oma’s place the whole weekdays and mummy only brings you back during the weekend, mummy could relate the feeling of why you do not wish to go back home with us. But why my son? Why this sudden changes? Do you not love mummy anymore?

You may not understand about this whole matter. YOu may not even aware that what you did has hurt mummy and daddy’s feeling because you are still a baby. Yes, you are still a baby in our eyes.Im sorry my son for being sensitive with you. Maybe mummy is still very childish to feel this way. But trust me my son, mummy will never ever give up on you and that mummy will still love your more and be fair towards you once your baby brother/sister comes out into this world.

I LOVE YOU SHIBLY!!!

Thank you to those who has not forgotten to visit this blog. I need motivation to blog about my life, be it interesting or boring and i know that i need to share the journey of my 2nd pregnancy. Although it has not been really good as the 1st one, im glad that everything has been going smoothly at this moment. Yes, i just hope everything will be all right.

I realised that i have not been looking so good with this 2nd one, i just feel so lazy to dress up, to put on make up and i still find my face so pale even though i tepek2 kan the make up on my face. Why? I hate this feeling ok?

So to motivate myself going to work everyday, i’ve decided to buy many2 clothes and many2 shoes but then i found that it is all a waste. I dont know why but i easily loathe the sight of my new clothes and shoes. Just feel like ‘not enough’ shopping. So selfish and stupid right?

Ok bye. I’ll blog again when i have the time. I know the ending is like so abrupt. Lol!

Lots of loathing,

Natyler.

I hope i have lots of story to share this year and i really missed blogging okay?

All i can say is that im feeling excited but not really that excited lah cause i have to take extra precautions in terms of my health.

Im just happy that i’ve got what i’ve been wanting so far:

Blackberry
Iphone
Laptop
Many clothes
Many shoes
Hair Extensions
Toys for Shibly
last but not least, a baby.

Well i know it’s still too early to announce but i just pray hard that everything will goes smoothly. See ya soon!

With love,
Me. Natyler lor.

Why is it that i always had no time to tweet and blog? Am i really busy or just being lazy? Trust me, i wanted to tweet as much as i can but i think and i feel that it is not necessary. Why like that??

Mana saya punya motivation nak tweet many2 ni? Mana saya punya twitpic camwhoring ni semua? Kenapa malas ni???? Arrggghhh..

Ok nite.

Shibly is falling sick due to high fever. I hope it’s not the disease from which my dad has just brought upon himself, H1N1 cause the other day, when i visited him, i forgotten to throw away the mask and left it in the car. The next thing i saw, Shibly was playing with my mask and wipe himself with it! Gosh!

I was being scolded by my husband of course, but that doesn’t mean he could have fever due to that right? Ok, touchwood!

I was feeling miserable since the 2nd day of fasting because i couldn’t fast. I was feeling so dehydrated as Shibly refused to bug off from my tetek. I mean, breastfeeding mum would understand what would happen when your child is falling sick. All they want to do is to keep on being fed with your milk until they feel better or when they really fell asleep. I was sweating all over especially when his fever was very high. I could feel the heat and i pity my boy but feel so helpless. The only thing to soothe him is to milk him, that’s it.

To add thing worst, my hubby was not feeling well too due to his migrane. So yesterday morning, both daddy and son went to the doctor and both got 2 days MC. I think it doesn’t really help much for my case because i am left only with one day child care leave. So, in other words, i have to use my one day leave too.

Being at home with both sick child and husband doesn’t really help at all. No one to help me with the simple house chores, cook porridge for Shibly and etc. I feel like crying and frustrated at the same time but i knew i couldn’t do much. Sigh…. this is very challenging for me. I had to drink plain water every here and then just to prevent myself from falling sick too.

To get Shibly take with his medicine is another disaster for both hubby and me. His wailing, crying, pushing and etc was really challenging for us.  He will vomit everything out and there it goes, we gotta clean up the affected areas, gotta make him change his clothes and all were really annoying. But still as a parent, we gotta keep cool and told him nicely that everything is going to be fine. There were times where hubby and i gotta argue because we found that there’s always something wrong with the things we done and with Shibly cries and all really make the both of us panic and frustrated with each other.

And then, just when everything went smoothly at work, meaning, all correspondence and emails are being replied up to-date, i have to take urgent leave for 2 days. My job is the kind where you have to come to work everyday to maintain and ensure that you have replied to customer’s query and make sure all applications to be done at the soonest. Aiyah, in other words, must be all up to-date lah. But now, since i’ve took 2 days leave, i really gotta buck up and clear all the shits at work comes Wednesday. That’s the reason why i’ve tweet less at work.

Sometimes i wish at this point of time, i could rely on pacifier so that Shibly could have something to suck on rather the relying on my breast. Wish i could have a maid to look after him whilst i took a nap. Wish i could wish so many things right now. Hur hur hur.

Ok, its time for me to take 5 before Shibly calls for my milk again.

Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends.

I find the car cantik like that. Nice Evo wannabe. Heheheheh.

And oh, i found this too. My used to be natoneandonly blogspot. I must really thank Azfiq who has made  great effort to create this for me. Sama like Crab punya. Till now, Crab masih setia gila sama ini skin. Bagus!

My face very lain eh? I think i look prettier last time. LOL!

And this is also another skin layout from Fafayus! Heeeee…. nice?

And euuuuwww..look at how skinny i was. And yes i am still skinny now. Hurhurhur.

Ok dah. That’s all for now. Sometimes it feels good to look at our old photos.

And oh, i shan’t elaborate about what i’ve posted few days ago. Im sure some of you may have read that angry entry but i have then decided to keep it as private.

Till then,

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

I know im not good when comes to selling my 2nd hand stuffs. But i really want to get rid those shoes and clothes because i need to give some space to the new stuffs!

So im selling my shoes which i bought at Gojane dot com. Wore once but both shoes are still in a  good condition. This pic was taken from my “Paranoid” entry. Size 6.5 (please note that i am a size 6 for shoes. Sometimes i wore size 5, depending on the style of the shoes)

Im letting go this bronze heels for $25. The colour may not be exactly as what shown in this picture because i used photoshop at that point of time. But it is still bronze lah. About 80% same colour as shown in this pic. The heels are like 4 to 4.5 inch. (estimated only)

Same size 6.5. Red glitter heels letting go at $20. The red is not that really red as shown in this picture. This was photoshopped. The red is slightly lighter than this photo. The heels are at 4 inch. (estimated only)

I prefer meet up only at Tanjong Pagar Mrt. Both shoes are now in my office. Let me know if you’re interested okay?

No cancellation after you have confirmed buying these shoes. I do not entertain those who wants refund. Sorry sorry strawberry!

Of course, before going out, i camwhore first lor…

I had to wear legging because i expected a lot of families to be there. Just to make sure that my skirt won’t catch too much attention. Lol!

Don’t i look like very the auntie ballerina? Lol! Here comes the mummies and the kids!!!!!

After having fun with the kids (both already wet and we didn’t bring any towels, pandai!), we headed to Marina Square for dinner…

Look, who got my flower clip? My lovely nephew niece, Qistina Aguilera

My buah hati, Shibly…

My bestest cousin, Tini…

Last but not least, our family photo…

Ok penat, want to sleep liao! Tomorrow another gathering at a friend’s house. Hope i am not lazy to take a group pictures with my old Bradellians!

Night!

I just love this old pic. *Perut tak buncit and tetek masih papan* LoL!

I tried to dress up similar to this style but why it doesn’t look nice anymore? Is it because of my hair? Or my pink skirt? Or maybe i should  wear it with my new black ballerina skirt?

I fetish ballerina skirt now. Don’t know what’s gotten into me.  Maybe i should start selling away my pink skirt cause my friend say it looks too childish. Lol!

That’s the birthday girl holding that little box.

We are the Minahs in this pathetic office.

No matter how pathetic Minahs we are, we are proud to be one because this job teaches us about Life and made us learnt a lot of lessons. This is the office where you can see how human beings lead their life. This is the office where we deals with different kind of attitudes and status.

We have always been reminded to dress appropriately, speak professionally and etc. It sucks ah and nonsense ok? But no choice, sometimes we have to face all that so called ‘fake professionalism’. The people we are dealing with can always stab behind our back. The always common thing that we have to face is C.O.M.P.L.A.I.N.T. Who don’t rite?

I’m with the Notorious colleague at work. I used to be one too but now i’m a changed person. People do change right?

Next coming up…..Colleague’s birthday Part 2.

Stay tuned ya?

Finally i found a new pair of shoes in blue colour. My old one has worn out.

I am not sure if i want to rebond my hair or highlight my hair. I love my very super shiny black hair.

Do you believe that i bought almost ten pieces of vintage dresses at Tekka? I sold 3 pieces away to my gfs @ work. The rest i reserved it for my best galpal. Sorry semua XS sizes. The prices are very unbelievable!! I think i shall go there again and look out for more design. One look very orbit lah but you must know how to match the dresses with your accessories and belts. Ya i know im not a fashionista pun but this information is just a basic one. ☻

My gfs @ work all menggila shopping clothes online under the wholesales price. I have few more websites in mind and perhaps we can share nak order ramai²? Macam kasut gojane dulu? Nak tak? Siapa nak friend with me? Angkat rambut ok? LOL!

I told my husband that i wanted to move to Condominium. Don’t want ah HDB flat. Boring aje. LOL! But my husband is against my idea. Dia punya lagi berangan besar kau. He prefer staying in the bungalow. He said it is much bigger than condo and he can even park his car right in front of the house. He said lagi best tak payah nak berebut parking with all the parking idiots. Hmmmm, whatever lah eh?  If bebual pasal cars with him, takkan habis punya! Then i told him, i don’t care, we moved at Condo ok? Then he said, hutang reno blum abis ada hati nak bual pasal beli condo. He asked me where to get the cash? Then i told him we sell away our 5-room flat lor! Im sure a lot of ppl will berebut nak beli our house since it is located in the central and near to Suntec. Ada MRT coming soon lagik! Plus our renovation and all, cukup lengkap. Serba bagus. Serba boleh.  But unfortunately cannot sell the house yet cause blum 5 years lagik. LOL! But still very irritating cause some agents even came knocking at our house and asked if we want to sell our flat. My husband feel like telling them, can offer me $1 million i sell ok? LOL!

Alar ni semua berangan.  So no need to feel meluat ok? Ni suma awu² aje. Takkan beli punya lah. Jangan takut. If can beli also i wont tell the whole world about it. Itu lah Janji Natyler. LOL!!

Shibly loves to watch Jim Jam Channel. Especially Bonny Banana & Mo, Igloo-gloo and Gazoon. He can sit and concentrate on the show like nobody business. I think he prefer cartoons with no dialogue. Cool kan? Heheheheh. As for Barney, Thomas & Friends, Bob the Builder, Jim the Cat, Fireman Sam, he prefer the songs only. Once the drama (drama sinetron kappa?) start aje, he will start doing other things.

Oh yes, he will sit quietly and concentrate gila punya when there is Azan berkumandang (saaapp, melayu abis nye word) and when i played the Alif Ba Taa DVD. He can also angkat doa and blum abis kita baca bismillah, dia dah Amin dulu. LOL! I think kan, my son ada potential jadi anak soleh and beragama kuat punya if i become ustazah and my husband, the Ustaz. And whenever he saw orang pakai songkok or telekong or even gambar masjid, he will angkat doa too. LOL!

Whenever Shibly cried or started being cranky, he will immediately calm down the moment he heard me recite some prayers, macam soothing ah gitu. I feel relieved and happy because Shibly has shown some interest in terms of religious matter.But then again, what’s the point of all these if I did nothing or show any good example to my son? If i want my son to love all these, i must start doing it. Right?

Entah lah, very hard to say lor. Everybody wants the best for their kids. So i guess coming 2009, i want to become a Isteri and Ibu Mithali. But handphone blum dapat macam mana ni??

On the way to Tampines….

Muka kalau tak make up mesti mau kena cover dengan spec itam. Biasa lah tu, nak cover muka tak lawa. Lol!

Although it was raining on that day, Shibly was beaming with joy and waited patiently until the rain has stopped. (Stop ada past tense tak?)

The buddies from ITE Macpherson. All boyak already. Hur hur! And how come the other two babies were looking at my handsome son eh? LOL!

Ok lah. More peektures can be view at my…errr….Facebook or maybe Multiply. See how lah which one i rajin to upload my gambar. I’ll be back with more gambar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bye!!!!!!!!!

These pictures were taken yesterday. Getting ready to Newton for dinner and whilst waiting for the husband to habis mandi, i camwhore lor. I am actually taking the chance to wear my new cute dress but unfortunately, can see my tummy mummy. Grrrr..

Shibly doesn’t sleep with me in the bed anymore. Had to put him at the mattress because he has terjatuh from the bed like don’t know how many times already. So that’s his tempat tidur now. But the only thing which I find uncomfortable is, i had to carry him to my bed whenever it is ‘tetek time’! Sometimes i would just feed him on his mattress and back to sleep on his mattress too. Malas betul nak turun naik katil. Grrrrr!

Shibly was busy playing with the torchlight. Mana2 aje dia dapat itu torchlight in my room tau!

Why our face tak sama Shibly? Why? Why ikut muka daddy 100%?

Ok last shot before kluar rumah. Perut mesti kena maintainkan kempis. Sesak nafas!

I promise that the next time i got pregnant and after gave birth, i want to be serious when comes to bengkung the perut. Tak nak malas² already.

Some say, better take it seriously. It happened to a friend’s baby who passed away at the age of 2 yrs old due to that hole in the heart. The toddler couldnt breathe properly and the face turned blue and passed away when admitted to the hospital.

Sigh.

I remembered before i discharged from the hospital last year, i almost couldnt bring back Shibly to go home with me because the doctor still need to observe his heart. Luckily it was not critical and they let us go. Luckily too, Shibly did not have any jaundice.

The last time i went to KKH for Shibly’s checkup, i was told that Shibly had to go for opt if the hole is still there. We did ask what are the side effects if we do not want him to go for the opt. Doctor say that there is no sign or whatsoever because he will still grow as normal kids. But, he may have problem when he is growing as a teenager. He may suffer kidney and lung failure. By then, it was too late to go for surgery. I was almost in tears when i heard the doctor told me that. I just couldnt believe it and oh my god, why must it happen to Shibly? Sometimes, i think that the doctor just want to exaggerate about the hole in his heart.

Sometimes i think that the government only know how to generate income by telling others to spend monies on the operation and all. hahaha. I know its cruel to say that, especially when your kid really need that operation. But why must it happen to my baby? I’ve quit smoking for the sake of Shibly ok? So all these are bull shit lah? I can accept it if i smoke during my pregnancy and that cause the holes in his heart, but i did not lei? Although i am very much in desire to smoke even for just a puff, i still couldnt bring myself to do it because im scared should something happened to my baby.

I have been religiously ate my Obimin and Neurogain (fish oil) during my pregnancy. I drank Anmum and i avoided my all time favourite, Sushis for the sake of my pregnancy. But still, my baby is being affected with that holes in the heart. Im ok if there is a hole in my pocket, but not in Shibly’s heart.

I just hope that my case will be like in the first paragraph. Yea. It will definitely close and will be closed.

On the other note, i have something funny to share. This conversation happened between my eldest bro and a young boy who lived at Darul Makwa.

Young boy: Abang, abang polis eh?

My eldest bro: macam mana adik tau?

Young boy: Saya ada otak, saya tau lah.

LOL!

Funny tak? That was cute eh?

Ok bye.

My cervix has opened up at 2 cm ONLY? Wahahaah!!!!!

Ok guys, i have about 10 more hours to be warded to the hospital because i’ve choosen to induce on 24 October 2007, that is my EDD date. My doctor told me that my baby is too big for my size. I am afraid that I might have to go for C-sect, which i hope no lah. I believe that every woman would prefer natural birth no matter how painful it is. Well, do pray for me so that I have the strength to push my baby out from the tummy. My amniotic fluid is still sufficient at this moment for baby to stay comfortably in my tummy.

This is the battle that I am going to fight with. This is between God and me. It scares me whenever i think of it. I am afraid of the pain too but most importantly, I am afraid that……ahh…ok forget it. It wont be nice talking about it.

I make a request to my hubby that I just want him to be with me starting from 6 am later at the hospital. I want to have a short shower with him first at home as early as 5 am, then i want him to shave my ehem again because now the bulu2 start to tumbuh again and very the itchy. LOL!!! Then tonight i want him to massage my feets and legs rabak2 so that I have a good night sleep. I dont want anybody to be with me except for my hubby once the doctor start to induce me.

Later, im going to have seafood dinner with my very favourite couple at East Coast. Kata orang tu, last ah konon makan berdamai with baby in the tummy. Nanti besok lusa baby dah kluar dah lain sikit. Heheheheh.

Euuuwwww..i cant believe it man!!!!! I really hope everything will goes on smoothly for both baby and me.

Thanks to all my friends who has been so busy sms-ing me for the past weeks and today, my hp macam nak meletup ok because they are so excited whether my baby dah out or not. Heeeee….. I feel so great macam Artist Fofular gituuuuuu!!

Yang lain2 tu, if you all havent buy my baby’s gift yet, please hurry up ok? Especially yang bottle steriliser and basin mandi baby tu ok? Tolong cepat sikit ye? LOL!!!

10 more hours to go before i admitted at KKH. Wooo hooo!! Step makan angin kat hotel posh lah gitu kan?