Anyway, today is my last day working but i’ll be starting my new job nx week! That is fast! On top of that, Ramadhan is in 3 more days! Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends!

Till i see you again in my next entry! Oh yaa… Let me end this post with pictures of my sons 

I had a normal labour and I am glad that i had a smooth delivery although it was very painful. And again, i did it without epidural, gas mask and whatever stuffs which can lessen the labour pain. I have to admit that i am a strong woman who could bear the pain (haha, feeling gitu!) but right after labour, i demam ok? Haaa..nak tunjuk kuat sangat, sampai terdemam ok? It was 3 hours labour cause i chose to induce. They said, induce is much more painful than the normal contraction Dunno how true was that but ok lah, most importantly, both mummy and baby are safe.

I remembered after about an hour of contraction, the doctor came to me, checked my cervix and it was only about 4 -5 cm and told me that they had to stop for awhile because the contraction was too strong for both baby and me. Baby’s heartbeat had went down due to the strong contraction and baby was feeling very stressed inside (kesian kan, my baby stressed pasal kena force keluar) . They gave me oxygen to breathe and relax and finally, baby’s heartbeat started back to normal.

Waited for another 2 hour and the contraction became stronger and stronger. You won’t believe m e when i said that i bear the pain ALONE although my husband was beside me. I did not make any noise, no whining,not even touch him or strangle him or bite his hand or koyakkan his baju whenever the contraction came. I do it quietly, i bite my own baju hospital KK and grit my teeth and hold the palang katil myself. I finally gave up when i suddenly felt that i wanted to terberak, told my hub to call the gynae/nurses to come inside the delivery suite and only then they found out that i was already 9 cm! Haaa..that time baru can hear my suara apa2 kind of suara terpekek n melalak macam perempuan gila.

My gynae came a bit too late coz my baby’s head almost nak terkeluar already. I was told by the nurses to hold on and just gave a little push and relax, a little push and relax and kept telling me to wait until my gynae arrive. It was so crazy and suddenly i hear so many voices to give me instruction to me as long as i could hold on the final push. Apa seh? Dah tak boleh tahan terkangkang besar2 like that and kepala budak dah tersendat kat tengah2 pussy still can ask me to hold on. So sakit and it was so unbearable. In the meanwhile, they told me to take the gas mask since they saw my face yang sungguh tak boleh tahan sakit. I surrended and took the gas mask. About 3 minutes later, i saw my gynae came, korek2 inside and dengan tak sabar nye i thought i could PUSH it but was told by her, DONT PUSH FIRST girl….!!! E’eh??? Suka skali org2 ni tahan me not to push? Not funny. After about few secs and few instructions by her, i finally gave one hard push with all my might and suara harimau lapar, Muhammad Syihab pun keluar…..

So lega when he’s out but not lega when the gynae start to jahit my pussy. Hahaha..i hate it ok? By the way, we just found out a day after my birth that the nurse who assisted my gynae was my husband’s friend’s wife. Hehehe. Her name is Ms Nurhazrina i think. Nice lady and she treated me very well during my labour. What a small world! Not only that, the nurse who was on night duties happened to be my ex primary schoolmate, Rahimah! ))

Im so glad that i have finally gave birth. Glad that my Syihab has my feature a bit. This time, my boy has the Malay look, just like ME. Heheheheheeheh….Was only warded for a day at KKH. I love my ward but sayang, only a day aje kat situ. Eh, i should be glad right? ;p

Naahhh, my ward ala ala room hotel lah konon but minus the katil. Love it so much. Hehehe.

The entrance door

Ok im done with my labour story. Will update again once i have the time. Would like to give my upmost thanks to my SIL Zura, Jhon and MIL for taking their time to visit me and SIL Kak Ida and BIL Abg Awil to fetch us home. Also to my bestest buddy, Tina & Mie for visiting me and my bestest cousin, Tini & Yan for the delivery of the sweet hamper to my ward. Also to my lovely DAD, Mohd Rasif who came all the way from work to visit me. Love you all.

Also, I love both my sons, Shibly and Syihab…… and we are the O+ family (my hub, myself, Shibly & Syihab!)

She checked on me and informed me that my cervix has opened at 2 cm and i could give birth anytime. She asked if i wanted to be warded that night and get myself induced but i declined. Well, i have my reason why i do not want to be warded that night and got induced, because, i am not ready to start my leaves as yet. Hello, i have like 3 more days to endure my working life and this was too sudden for me! Hurhur.

I went for a short test, about half an hour, in a observation room to see whether if i had any contraction but was noted that i did not have any contraction as yet and my gynae finally agreed that i could go back home that day. She, however feel that i should just induce now but oh well, i dont understand why is she so kanchong than me?

For now, it is like a waiting game for me. I am having a sharp pain on my abdomen and it is very uncomfortable. Hubby is kind enough to be there for me 24 hours. Sanggup dia tak pergi kerja ok? I think he also want to take the chance of not going to work huh?

Anyway, look at me and my tum tum. Yes, this is the dress that i purposely bought specially for me to be warded to the hospital. Haha! I just want to have that motivation to beranak. Sanggup beli bag baru ok just to sumbat all my barang2 maternity. OH wait! I think i left my breastpump in the office!!!!!

Yea like finally, i have my favourite baby cot in my room. Besar jah! Sempit bilek aku tapi nak buat apa, anak punya pasal! Thanks to Mariani and Adi Budiman!

Ok here it goes! This was taken last Friday. Mentang2 tak kerja (on MC), i is so semangat nak pakai fake lashes. Can’t stand myself at times. Sighhh!!!

I asked my husband if i looked ‘cute’ in this picture, but he doesn’t seems to give me err, positive answer cause he hate my bangs! Wth?

The only thing he likes about this picture is, my dress. Yeah, he chose that dress for me to wear. Bought at Frou Frou City Plaza.

Okay frankly speaking, i am having this jitters feeling (macam nak kahwin pulak) about giving birth anytime soon. I dont know if this is going to be my last pictures of pregnancy. It is kinda sad. I am sure going to miss the feeling of being pregnant again. That is the reason why i camwhored myself many2 so that I could browsed back how cheeky and vain i am during my 2nd pregnancy.

I feel like getting myself induced now and quickly give birth but at the same time, i dont feel a need to give birth in a hurry. Tsk. You know, the feeling of nak beranak skrg tapi tak nak, tak nak beranak skrg tapi nak? Ahhh…like that lah.

Ok will update again. Hopefully with more peektures!

I wonder if Shibly could accept his baby brother and loves him just like how he used to kiss my tumtum every day and kept telling me that he wants to play football and boxing with his baby brother. How sweet! But well, im not really sure if he would react the same once his baby brother is out. *gulp*

Anyway, here are some of my random photos. Gotta love this pregnancy and camwhoring moment with my son, Shibly.

All photos below were taken before 37 weeks pregnant.

I just love being me. I can still fit into these kind of dresses even though i was 8 mths pregnant. Perhaps, thanks to my petite size?

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Okay, it has been quite some time i did this thang. I meant, to upload photos and blog at the same time is really tiring. I just did this out of boredom. I do have many things to do at home actually, but i choose to just update this boring blog of mine just to make me satisfied tt i have a blog and will try my best to blog whatever happens in my life.

Of course there are things that i couldn’t blog about. It’s hard sometimes to just keep numb about it but then, people might know whom you are talking about and assumed the problems that you’re facing be it at home or at work.

I would love to upload more photos here but i guess that has to wait. I want to sleep now and let’s hope that tomorrow will be a better day and more updates to come!

Cheeerrrssss!!!!

Let me make this entry an interesting one! Will show my month to month pregnancy!

But sorry, i seriously did not record down how many months pregnant i was at that time. I think this photo tells me that i am about 6 weeks pregnant.

This one must be about 3 months pregnant?? What do you think huh?

I dont look like pregnant at all didn’t i? But seriously, these were my pregnancy photos! Heeee!!!

This was my latest photo! 8 months pregnancy!!

Sorry for the poor quality of the photos. Most pics were taken from my Blackberry Storm. Yeah, i hope you enjoy looking at these photos. Will update again but i shall not promise. Heeee!

On another note, i just got to know from hub that his next reservist will be end of August, meaning that once baby is out (tentatively 19 aug’10), hub has to go away for at least 2 weeks. Why must it always happened that way?

I remembered when we first got married, 18 & 19 Aug’06, hub had to leave me for reservist (to Australia somemore) for 3 weeks on Nov’06. Baru kahwin dah kena tinggal laki. Lol!

Then when i gave birth to Shibly, 24 Oct’07, hub had to leave me again for reservist on early Nov’07. And now, it has to happen again. You get what i mean? Why must it always had to be around the most important ‘i-need-my-hubby-badly’ day?

Oh well, that’s for now. Will come and rant more when time permits.

Have a nice day you people!

The second time you did that was when mummy and daddy rushed back from work and were so eager to fetch you home. Although mummy and daddy always complained that we were so tired, never ever once we left you overnight at your Oma’s place. Although mummy and daddy had the intention to watch midnight movies or chilling with friends at pub/cafe and to leave you overnight at Oma’s place, it never happens because we love you too much and we feel like so kesian gitu kena tinggal with Oma.

Today, it happened again. This time round was quite bad because you refused to let mummy or daddy to hold or touch and you wailed so loudly as if mummy and daddy are like strangers to you when we wanted to bring you back home. Mummy almost wanted to cry but mummy wouldnt want to embarass herself and treat it as a small matter. It is not a small matter to mummy, because mummy cannot understand and do not understand why you reacted that way. Was it because mummy has been too hard for you? Did mummy force you to do something that you dont like? Mummy know that although you are only 2 yrs and 5 months old, you are already a smart boy and that you knew what we adults were thinking. Was it because you are angry because mummy no longer wants to breastfeed you? Or was it because mummy is pregnant and that you feel that mummy will not love you anymore?

My dear son Shibly, mummy loves you too much and this is part of the reason why mummy has to blog about this. Although some people may think mummy is crazy and so sensitive nak mampos, mummy will not care a bit of what they feel. Because mummy is the one who gave birth to you and had fight the battle of breastfeeding to breastfeed you tilll this old. Mummy has willing to sacrifice a lot of things for you and mummy feels that mummy has the right to feel sad, hurt and emo with your sudden changes.

As far as mummy could remember, never ever once mummy dares to leave you overnight at your Oma’s place or to anybody’s place. If it ever happened that you stayed at Oma’s place the whole weekdays and mummy only brings you back during the weekend, mummy could relate the feeling of why you do not wish to go back home with us. But why my son? Why this sudden changes? Do you not love mummy anymore?

You may not understand about this whole matter. YOu may not even aware that what you did has hurt mummy and daddy’s feeling because you are still a baby. Yes, you are still a baby in our eyes.Im sorry my son for being sensitive with you. Maybe mummy is still very childish to feel this way. But trust me my son, mummy will never ever give up on you and that mummy will still love your more and be fair towards you once your baby brother/sister comes out into this world.

I LOVE YOU SHIBLY!!!

Thank you to those who has not forgotten to visit this blog. I need motivation to blog about my life, be it interesting or boring and i know that i need to share the journey of my 2nd pregnancy. Although it has not been really good as the 1st one, im glad that everything has been going smoothly at this moment. Yes, i just hope everything will be all right.

I realised that i have not been looking so good with this 2nd one, i just feel so lazy to dress up, to put on make up and i still find my face so pale even though i tepek2 kan the make up on my face. Why? I hate this feeling ok?

So to motivate myself going to work everyday, i’ve decided to buy many2 clothes and many2 shoes but then i found that it is all a waste. I dont know why but i easily loathe the sight of my new clothes and shoes. Just feel like ‘not enough’ shopping. So selfish and stupid right?

Ok bye. I’ll blog again when i have the time. I know the ending is like so abrupt. Lol!

Lots of loathing,

Natyler.

I hope i have lots of story to share this year and i really missed blogging okay?

All i can say is that im feeling excited but not really that excited lah cause i have to take extra precautions in terms of my health.

Im just happy that i’ve got what i’ve been wanting so far:

Blackberry
Iphone
Laptop
Many clothes
Many shoes
Hair Extensions
Toys for Shibly
last but not least, a baby.

Well i know it’s still too early to announce but i just pray hard that everything will goes smoothly. See ya soon!

With love,
Me. Natyler lor.

I wanted to upload some photos before the fasting month, wanted to blog about my birthday cake, wanted to blog about breaking fast at a friend’s place but i don’t know why i couldn’t bring myself to upload all the beautiful photos. Why???????

And if you follow my twitter, you know what i’ve got and what is going on too. I am actually pretending to be ‘ON’ updating my twitter regularly all because of the new thang lah. Ha ha ha ha. But im not really sure how far i can go with my BB. I am not familiar with BB but well, im trying to get some help from the husband’s manager cause he used to work for BB previously and is expert with that system. Err…but i got the feeling that my husband could not be bothered to layankan my permintaan yang tak necessary langsung. What luck!

I am not prepared for Raya this year. I don’t know why lah and don’t ask me why ok. All i know that i need to treat my mum for some hari raya stuffs cause she deserve it.

Ok nite. Will be back very soon with photos. I think i need new digicam. 14 megapixel Canon digicam. Amacam? Cool tak? But you think i can get it? Ahhhh..dont think so lah. My husband confirm nag at me one. After Pixon, nak BB, dah BB nak digicam pulakkkkk…alahaaiiiii.

Till i blog again~

Why is it that i always had no time to tweet and blog? Am i really busy or just being lazy? Trust me, i wanted to tweet as much as i can but i think and i feel that it is not necessary. Why like that??

Mana saya punya motivation nak tweet many2 ni? Mana saya punya twitpic camwhoring ni semua? Kenapa malas ni???? Arrggghhh..

Ok nite.

Shibly is falling sick due to high fever. I hope it’s not the disease from which my dad has just brought upon himself, H1N1 cause the other day, when i visited him, i forgotten to throw away the mask and left it in the car. The next thing i saw, Shibly was playing with my mask and wipe himself with it! Gosh!

I was being scolded by my husband of course, but that doesn’t mean he could have fever due to that right? Ok, touchwood!

I was feeling miserable since the 2nd day of fasting because i couldn’t fast. I was feeling so dehydrated as Shibly refused to bug off from my tetek. I mean, breastfeeding mum would understand what would happen when your child is falling sick. All they want to do is to keep on being fed with your milk until they feel better or when they really fell asleep. I was sweating all over especially when his fever was very high. I could feel the heat and i pity my boy but feel so helpless. The only thing to soothe him is to milk him, that’s it.

To add thing worst, my hubby was not feeling well too due to his migrane. So yesterday morning, both daddy and son went to the doctor and both got 2 days MC. I think it doesn’t really help much for my case because i am left only with one day child care leave. So, in other words, i have to use my one day leave too.

Being at home with both sick child and husband doesn’t really help at all. No one to help me with the simple house chores, cook porridge for Shibly and etc. I feel like crying and frustrated at the same time but i knew i couldn’t do much. Sigh…. this is very challenging for me. I had to drink plain water every here and then just to prevent myself from falling sick too.

To get Shibly take with his medicine is another disaster for both hubby and me. His wailing, crying, pushing and etc was really challenging for us.  He will vomit everything out and there it goes, we gotta clean up the affected areas, gotta make him change his clothes and all were really annoying. But still as a parent, we gotta keep cool and told him nicely that everything is going to be fine. There were times where hubby and i gotta argue because we found that there’s always something wrong with the things we done and with Shibly cries and all really make the both of us panic and frustrated with each other.

And then, just when everything went smoothly at work, meaning, all correspondence and emails are being replied up to-date, i have to take urgent leave for 2 days. My job is the kind where you have to come to work everyday to maintain and ensure that you have replied to customer’s query and make sure all applications to be done at the soonest. Aiyah, in other words, must be all up to-date lah. But now, since i’ve took 2 days leave, i really gotta buck up and clear all the shits at work comes Wednesday. That’s the reason why i’ve tweet less at work.

Sometimes i wish at this point of time, i could rely on pacifier so that Shibly could have something to suck on rather the relying on my breast. Wish i could have a maid to look after him whilst i took a nap. Wish i could wish so many things right now. Hur hur hur.

Ok, its time for me to take 5 before Shibly calls for my milk again.

Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends.

Apparently, one of my colleagues was infected by TB and therefore, the management are measuring their safety for all the staffs and has therefore decided to send us for further medical check-up, only to selected staffs.

Few of my colleagues have been discharge, meaning that they are not infected by it and need not go for further check-up. Unfortunately, I was not that lucky but I was not confirmed having that disease too. I happened to have coughs for the past few weeks and therefore, the X-ray showed that my lungs are not fully cleared.

I was then given antibiotics and will need to return back to their clinic for further check-up. Actually, this is not what has been bothering me. I am being paranoid with works and I am not sure whether loss of appetites is one of the main causes of my stress at work. Just in case you need to find out what is TB. 

I tell you eh, working in this department is killing me. Not only that we are being under paid and no bonus for July’09, ada penyakit lagikkk!! Lepas satu, satu tau!But i don’t blame my colleague who are being infected by it. These are all God’s will. We never know what God has in store for us.:D

What is tuberculosis?

Tuberculosis (TB) is an infection caused by slow-growing bacteria that grow best in areas of the body that have lots of blood and oxygen. That’s why it is most often found in the lungs. This is called pulmonary TB. But TB can also spread to other parts of the body, which is called extrapulmonary TB. Treatment is often a success, but it is a long process. It takes about 6 to 9 months to treat TB.
Tuberculosis is either latent or active.
 Latent TB means that you have the TB bacteria in your body, but your body’s defenses (immune system) fight the infection and try to keep it from turning into active TB. This means that you don’t have any symptoms of TB right now and can’t spread the disease to others. If you have latent TB, it can become active TB.
 Active TB means that the TB bacteria are growing and causing symptoms. If your lungs are infected with active TB, it is easy to spread the disease to others.
How is TB spread to others?
Pulmonary TB (in the lungs) is contagious. It spreads when a person who has active TB breathes out air that has the TB bacteria in it and then another person breathes in the bacteria from the air. An infected person releases even more bacteria when he or she does things like cough or laugh.
If TB is only in other parts of the body (extrapulmonary TB), it does not spread easily to others.
Who is most at risk for TB?
Some people are more likely than others to get TB. This includes people who:
 Have HIV or another illness that weakens their immune system.
 Have close contact with someone who has active TB, such as living in the same house as someone who is infected with TB.
 Care for a patient who has active TB, such as doctors or nurses.
 Live or work in crowded places such as prisons, nursing homes, or homeless shelters, where other people may have active TB.
 Have poor access to health care, such as homeless people and migrant farm workers.
 Abuse drugs or alcohol.
 Travel to or were born in places where untreated TB is common, such as Latin America, Africa, Asia, Eastern Europe, and Russia.
It is important for people who are at a high risk for getting TB to get tested once or twice every year.
What are the symptoms?
Most of the time when people are first infected with TB, the disease is so mild that they don’t even know they have it. People with latent TB don’t have symptoms unless the disease becomes active.
Symptoms of active TB may include:
 A cough that brings up thick, cloudy, and sometimes bloody mucus from the lungs (called sputum) for more than 2 weeks.
 Tiredness and weight loss.
 Night sweats and a fever.
 A rapid heartbeat.
 Swelling in the neck (when lymph nodes in the neck are infected).
 Shortness of breath and chest pain (in rare cases).
How is TB diagnosed?
Doctors usually find latent TB by doing a tuberculin skin test. During the skin test, a doctor or nurse will inject TB antigens under your skin. If you have TB bacteria in your body, within 2 days you will get a red bump where the needle went into your skin. The test can’t tell when you became infected with TB or if it can be spread to others.
To find pulmonary TB, doctors test a sample of mucus from the lungs (sputum) to see if there are TB bacteria in it. Doctors sometimes take a chest X-ray to help find pulmonary TB.
To find extrapulmonary TB, doctors can take a sample of tissue (biopsy) to test. Or you might get a CT scan or an MRI so the doctor can see pictures of the inside of your body.
How is it treated?
Most of the time, doctors combine four antibiotics to treat active TB. It’s important to take the medicine for active TB for at least 6 months. Almost all people are cured if they take their medicine just like their doctor says to. If tests still show an active TB infection after 6 months, then treatment continues for another 2 or 3 months.
Most people with latent TB are treated with only one antibiotic that they take for 9 months. This reduces their risk for getting active TB.
If you miss doses of your medicine, or if you stop taking your medicine too soon, your treatment may fail or have to go on longer. You may have to start your treatment over again. This can also cause the infection to get worse or lead to an infection that is resistant to antibiotics. This is much harder to treat.
TB can only be cured if you take all the doses of your medicine. A doctor or nurse may have to watch you take it to make sure that you never miss a dose and that you take it the proper way. You may have to go to the doctor’s office every day, or a nurse may come to your home or work. This is called direct observational treatment. It helps people follow all of the instructions and keep up with their treatment, which can be complex and take a long time. Cure rates for TB have greatly improved because of this type of treatment.
If active TB is not treated, it can damage your lungs or other organs and can be deadly.

After the tiring weekends but wonderful and memorable events (my SIL’s wedding), I did not have a chance to take leave on Monday as I had to attend two days course at MDIS. I was happy to attend for the course. It brings me away from stress and irritating customers. I made friend with a lady named Nicole and was delighted to know that she is a breastfeeding mummy too! Her daughter is almost 3 yrs old and she had the same worries as me, “When should we stop b/f our kids?” Hehehhe.

Other than her, the rest of the people were okay okay. The most not okay one was this particular lady who seemed to be unfriendly, only in my eyes lah. I don’t really know what’s her problem because she doesn’t bother to smile at me and the best part is, she made me feel as if I am invisible. Lol! Okay lah. Whatever lerrrr.

Let’s move on to something else. Fasting month is like a month away and I am excited about it. Excited because I am very much in love with Ramadhan month as it brings me to realise the importance of being a Muslim. This is the month where we can prove our strength to endure hunger and avoid unnecessary gossips, skimpy outfit and etc.

My mum used to tell me that fasting without praying will not benefits me at the end of the day because I will somehow have that ZERO markah for my amalan. When I was young, of course I was afraid that I will have zero markah if I don’t pray whilst fasting and that advice, that voice, still lingers in my mind.

My drastic change during last year Ramadhan has brought some curiosity (and of course lah some gossips) among my colleagues and it was as if there was something which has manipulated my mind and resulted me to start praying! It was unbelievable for them and some couldn’t help but to ask me whether if I am doing it sincerely or trying to make myself feel good? I somehow knew what they meant but I just couldn’t be bothered to give my honest opinion to them since i prefer not to talk too much else my amalan semua missing and I will definitely have zero point. Lol!

Unfortunately, the fasting and the praying does not last long, not even a month. I quit fasting and praying after 2 weeks later because I told myself that I don’t have the time to do it and very tired lah. Semangat dua minit aje! That was terrible right? That’s a very LAME excuse, yes i know. :p

Ok, i’ve been dying to upload photos at my blog but i have not been camwhoring for the past months, (all thanks to the stress at work), so these are the photos that i could come up with, my beautiful apek son Mat Shib! Lol!!

He has these favourite words which has been fully absorbed in his mind and has been successful pronouncing the words with full of confidence and without any missing letters on it. They are, “Alamak! ” “Mamak Prata!” ” Apek!”

LOL! Suka ajar anak bukan-bukan?

But the most interesting and yet soothing word that he said is ‘Heylluu!” You should have heard his tone and could never imagine that the voice actually came from a 21 months old boy! LOL! It is something like a British man saying hellu to you in a slang way but with a little high pitch tone.

And of course, the mummy has never missed a chance to snap a photo of herself!

The bacin me.

Till we meet again!

After several discussions with him, we decided that we got to take our own risk by taking photos for the Hummer (yeah not Lamborghini because that wasn’t the main thing that the boss wants to promote at the moment). We feel that it is unfair to pay nothing to stranger who volunteered for the photoshoot. They got nothing and we got something. That is so unfair and unjust.

Anyway, it is not my project and the boss will not give us Lamborghini or Hummer just because my hubby got the deal for the website. Lol! I was thinking to earn extra money too after being inspired with the hubby’s hobby which has finally bears some fruits on it.

But what am I to be? I think I am more prone in spending money than to earn money. *roll eyes*

Tracking back on the Hummer photoshoot, I told hubby that it is time to buy good camera or SLR so that we can take better quality of the picture. As usual, he wasn’t keen on my idea and told me that he wants to earn money and not spending money on such items. But heck! Aren’t the SLR meant for work purpose? (of course, to me its more than that, it’s more for my own camwhoring and without any useful purpose, geez!)

Not only that he refused to buy the SLR camera, he even objected to my request of buying a new fan to be placed at Shibly’s room! I almost wanted to scream at him for being so stingy and so unreasonable. I have my reason to buy the fan of course. I do not like the idea to switch on the air-con in his room because i hate to close the window as it only turns out to make his room more dull and gloomy. But come to think of it again, what is the purpose of buying fans when you have air-cons in every room? Well, I do still have my reason and I shall keep that to myself at the moment. 

Apparently, the project that he is working on now has yet to be completed and thus resulted to a “how much do we need to quote them’ question. Of course, few thousands has been lingered in his mind but he is as timid as a mouse can be whenever he have to face with such situation. My husband is not not not good when quoting a price and will always ask for my opinion. Being the ‘ya-ya-or’ accountant wife, ( I have to be ya-ya-or because I love my husband and hate to see him got bullied with ungrateful pests) I will have to give my 2 cents worth of price to him. Only then he will start to open his mouth and give his 2nd thought of my quotation and then agreed with it and will proceed to tell his customer of his best price.

Sigh. Not only he is timid with the quotation stuffs but he is at times, too kind-hearted. After being dealt with a great blow few years back (all thanks to the failure of ***which he has been working so hard on it and were paid with a minimal sum for a price of your monthly power supply bills), we decided not to give face to any friends when comes to business. Business is business and if you’re unhappy with the price quotation, feel free to approach other web designers. We have learnt so much from people that we feel that we are being stepped and stabbed real hard from them. People love to take advantage when we are being nice to them. These people still pretend that nothing happened when their project failed and could even ask for his help again to set up another one! That is very ridiculous and that is part of the reason why he has stayed away from drifting. Drifting was his passion and if you have no money, better stay away from the rich and never invite troubles.

Anyway, Shibly is turning 2 in 3 months time. That is very fast and I have yet to plan for the future. The actual fact is, I planned so many things for Shibly but I have not started with any of my plans yet. I feel that I need to spend more time with him and the thought of being SAHM has to be destroyed forever. I know that I can never be one. But I am thankful of course, to be blessed with this current job and a husband who can still support me at the same time.

My sister in law is getting married this weekend and I am indeed happy for her. Things will definitely changed once she got married and who knows, there might be additional members in our family next year? The thought of having extra member in the family has started to haunt me. Is it time for me to start saving and revised back all my expenses? Will things go smoothly as ever or do I have to juggle with times and thinking of a way to earn extra money to hire a maid in future?

I am still contemplating to close my Multiply but I couldn’t bear to part with all my photos and contacts. When i first got married and then got pregnant with Shibly, Multiply was my first source of breaking the wonderful news to my dear close friends. I shared my inner thoughts to strangers at Multiply and they seems to be enjoying my funny antics and adoring my not-so-ugly photos too. LOL!

Well, it seems not a good idea for me to close down my Multiply. I’ll just let it rot there, and who knows that i might come back there again?

Lately, i’ve been dying to get a new handphone because someone has just bought a new phone and i was like all excited to grab ShitBlackberry for myself too! A couple had been approaching us for some opinions on what phone to get and of course, being the nonsense and menggelapu me yang nak beli Blackberry, i told them to get it while its hot. But end up, each took a different model of the phone and Blackberry was not their final choice although that was their initial plan. Apu neneh!

My husband, knowing how badly i want the Blackberry phone, then told me that it reminds him of an incident where he was caught in the conversation between Boss A and Boss B, talking about the latest phones. This Boss A offered his blackberry phone to Boss B, stating the fact that he doesn’t know how to use Blackberry phone and that he just bought it for fun since this was the ‘in thing’. Boss B declined his offer as he claimed that he is not used having such phone and preferred the old Nokia model and has been using it comfortably. My husband then was smiling, wondering what could happen if i were there, listening to their conversation. Hurhurhur. Of course, i jumped with excitement and asked my husband, why didn’t he voice out something?

My husband then told me, of course paiseh lah. Boss A never offered him so how to talk? LOL! He told me that even if the boss offered, he wouldn’t take his offer because he got no money to buy the phone for me also. Lol! Haiyah.. wasted right? :p

Ha ha ha ha ha…not funny and… i still want new phone!!!!!! Perhaps i may not want to buy blackberry lor. Not sure what phone i want but all i know is that i need a new phone. It doesn’t matter whether i got bonus or not, it is not important at all!!!!!!! I don’t care and im going to buy new phone too ok? But to think of being saddled with another contract and further debts, i may think twice. Yes, TWICE. See? Nak step sensible pulak eh?

Ok, put aside of getting new phones, my SIL’s wedding is coming soon and i’ve yet to invite some friends for her wedding! I have yet to see my tailored outfit and has yet to put aside the payment for the bajus, exclude the accessories, shoes, make up and etc. LOL! Over kan?? Oh not only that, after my SIL’s wedding, i have to attend for my company’s D&D and the theme is Masquerade . WOW!!! WOO!! What am i supposed to dress? *scratch head*

But anyway, after having a discussion with a colleague of mine on what we should wear for the D&D, we came to a conclusion that we may have to ‘BUIH’ again at the very last minute for the event. That was what happened last year. LOL! We both were so confident to attend the D&D but end up, we both cabut and buat bodoh sudah! LOL!

You know it totally sucks when someone who doesn’t dressed up for the event could win as the Best Dressed or Ms ****. Really bodoh! It happened every year, they always end up choosing someone who dressed up with very simple outfit. Some dressed up without following the theme at all also can win lei? *shake butt* But of course lah, some deserved to win, but that rarely happened. :p

I am missing my Shibly now! Its time to fetch him from my MIL’s place. Yea, finally i got to sleep and rest well at home without him today. Its not that i am enjoying what i did today but because i have no maid to help me clean the house and to look after him, and my husband is very busy with his projects, the sickly me, had to put him away for awhile and is going to fetch him back soon.

I mean, right now. Yes, right now i am going to hogah my husband to fetch Shibly right away!

But i think this is a good buy lah. Im selling this button pinafore in pink colour and free size for $13.00 aje.

Anyway no hal also if nobody’s interested because i can always altered this button pinafore to make it fit for my size. Yes, my skinny size. Boring lah im getting back to my old shape. No, its not that i am not thankful or what lah or being so ngada-ngada. But i am sick of being skinny. Whatever lah ye. Should be thankful that i am healthy right?

But my only problem is, i am very malas to go and alter this pinafore. Macam like so hegeh gitu setakat satu baju then kena altered. Irritating right?

Another issue is, i’ve been pestering my husband to sell away his ASS 13 since last year. And i didn’t know that this is like very sensitive issue to him. I tell you, can see his very dissapointed face ok? Guess he must have felt that the person that he trusted most could tell him off about disposing his favourite car.  I feel very bad talking about his car and i don’t really know whether if i should stop talking about it.

Last year, there was this buyer who was interested to buy over his car for $25k. Ya lar not much and for me, i considered this as a good price because i heard that this car left with about 3 more years of COE. Is it? I also not sure. Hahah. Unfortunately, my husband aborted his plan to sell because i think that he should listen to his heart more than to his wife. How sad!

And recently, we did talk about these things again. Of course, i inititate the plan again but i knew that i failed.

All he asked for is my understanding and patience to keep this car until he thinks that it is time to let go.

I didn’t know that the needs of having a new car could be this difficult and lots of patience is needed at this point of time. As a wife, this is a very challenging task for me. And the more he wants to keep his car, the more i am less interested to take up driving license. I cannot drive that car and it is difficult to control it. I see my husband’s hand like kena vibration like that whenever he drove fast. Eeee..it feels like the steering wheel and all the 4 wheels going to tercabut like that. LOL!

Never mind. I’ve got no choice mah? At least there are lot of kids who loves his car. I think Shibly is one lucky dude to have his daddy driving that car. Every morning, i can see few kids will point their finger at the car to their parents and i can tell that they are soooooo excited. I seriously have no idea what are they thinking? I think because his car looks like a toy car.

Maybe i should asked my naughty little nephews what is so exciting about his car so that i can be happy and forever happy with his Ass 13. Who knows that i may told him no need to buy new car? That will make him loves me more than his ass 13. Don’t you think so?

Yesterday i had fun going out with my favourite couple. Woke up at 8 am and hogah-hogah both hubby and son to wake up so that we can go to Tekka to have Apom! Hubby felt lazy to drive his Ass 13 and had to tumpang our favourite couple punya car. Off we went to Tekka and had Apom, Chapatti and Masala Thosai. Shibly pun eat sama-sama with us. Then we went to Chinatown, had to accompany them buy toiletries and some shopping. No, i did not shop cause i have no money already. Boo hoo hoo. After Chinatown, we headed to my mum’s place at Qtown to have a cup of tea, then to Commonwealth, dropping by to their nenek’s place to have Tulang. Then off we went to my place and watched Matryr again.

I can’t remember what time i slept and what time they went back yesterday. All i know is, Monday kena kerja and here i am typing this entry without any motives. Wanted to upload some photos from my Pixon but suddenly macam malas.

Today almost nak ponteng kerja because hubby said he very malas nak work. I told him “no-no” must go to work because i have a new dress to wear mah? Hurhurhur. Hubby pun malas nak layan and no choice but to go to work and decided to drop me off at Eunos Mrt aje and pandai2 saya pergi kerja ok?

So bad tau…because i wore read heels so that i could match it with my red belt and red/white earrings. I wore white dress today and i think my dress can see my underwear. Then i caught one pervert kept looking at my dress in the MRT just now. I had to stand all the way from Eunos to Tanjong Pagar and my feet aching like hell because my red heels yg glitter2 and takde org nak beli tu, is very ketat nak mampos. Especially the front part. So kecik and sempit for my toes nak bernafas.

I feel a bit farktup because i don’t like my dress yang can see through ni. Ni dress bodoh namanya. Irritating right? Some more, today is Monday lagik. I wore fake lashes to work also and i feel like shit ah cause it makes my eyes very draggy too just like the owner. Then pagi2 masuk office kena kalered Majulah Singapura because off the red and white theme. Yea yea whatever. *roll eyes*

When is the week going to end?

Anyway, i have a story to share.

I have this customer who is a guy. Then out of nowhere, few years later, i found out that he changed his name to a lady’s name. I looked at his i/c and he doesn’t look like a Sissy at all. He is straight but with very nerdy look. He’s married too and lead a normal life just like any of us.

I heard he has been divorced and he transformed from being a man to a lady. It is very sad to see that he has a daughter.

So, can you tell me. From a father, what has he become? A mother? Then, how will his daughter called him? Dad? or what?

Sad eh? But true.

Ok dah. Try to ponder it in your heart. Don’t gossip. Very bad ok?